I may have found the source of my fears

[scrupulousrvrt]

And it’s not Good. In fact, the exact opposite! When I’m terrified (especially the past few days) I stay awake and borderline despair, half wishing I was either Protestant or never born. I think my literal fear comes from not only sin, but from the devil himself! How do I know if this fear is demonic in and of itself?

 

[edward_george1]

It’s also likely, since you identify yourself as suffering from scruples, that your fears are compulsive. You should seek the help of a priest and a mental health professional in dealing with this. You’re going to get a lot of contradictory and unhelpful (name removed by moderator)ut online.

You’re in my prayers
-Fr ACEGC

 

[LaughingBoy1503]

You do not have to even try to figure out if your fear is demonic. I am scrupulous too but worked with a spiritual director and got way better. It is said that when the devil cant get you to sin he will do the next best thing and make you THINK you have sinned when you have not.

All you need to do is find a spiritual director and follow his advice to the letter. This is what The Church recommends for someone suffering with scrupulosity. It is the only way you will find relief. If you do not know how to obtain one, pm me and ill tell you how I found mine. God bless.

 

[guanophore]

When I’m terrified (especially the past few days) I stay awake and borderline despair, half wishing I was either Protestant or never born.

What a strange thought. Why would you wish that?

I think my literal fear comes from not only sin, but from the devil himself!

Christians need have no fear of sin, since Jesus has already paid the price for our sins, and we are hidden with Christ in God.

But you are right that Satan wants to rob us of the peace, joy, and righteousness that is our birthright.

 

[Alex337]

Have you spoken with a counsellor? It honestly sounds like it may be anxiety.

Pray and know that God will keep you safe. But also try grounding yourself when the panic strikes; think of five things you can see, four you can hear, three you can feel and two you can smell. It will help settle you in the moment and calm you a bit.