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Kontrak
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I am having a hard time living up to my responsibility and a difficult time being the selfless person God is calling me to be. He is opening up a whole new world to me and I believe He is also calling me to sainthood. But I am impossibly inadequate HE KNOWS this and that’s why He wants this for me. He wants me to rely totally on Him. I would like for Him to tell me that I can relax or I don’t have to give up certain things but I don’t believe He will – He won’t discourage me to give more of myself. This is so hard to explain and so private. It would be like asking Him to repent of giving me the heart I have or His plans for me. This is what I feel the Lord’s message is for me :
Jesus replied, “Let it be so now; it is proper for us to do this to fulfill all righteousness.” Then John consented.
I don’t want to make excuses for myself or let Him down. At the same time I wish I could feel like I’m doing the right thing and making progress. I feel I need to drop everything and follow Him but I am surrounded by too much temptation and I feel I have to be patient but at the same the more I wait the more time I have to indulge myself with the life I am trying to give up. I need the Holy Spirit. I don’t know exactly what will happen to me when He comes although I’ve felt Him many times lately already. He one time gave me peace to not raise my voice to my mother although I was fighting the experience and I started to lose it. It is also like being fused with Jesus Himself and being His special tool, His word His hands ect. Maybe we don’t usually realize it is happening when it does? This is all so much more amazing and dramatic then I can put into words. I am no–We are not worthy.
Please pray for the descent of the Holy Spirit upon me. And pray pray pray for yourselves as well. And a BLESSED AND HAPPY NEW YEAR YEAR in which the LORD Will begin to heal us all in!
16He went to Nazareth, where he had been brought up, and on the Sabbath day he went into the synagogue, as was his custom. And he stood up to read. 17The scroll of the prophet Isaiah was handed to him. Unrolling it, he found the place where it is written:
18“The Spirit of the Lord is on me,
because he has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
and recovery of sight for the blind,
to release the oppressed,
19to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”
20Then he rolled up the scroll, gave it back to the attendant and sat down. The eyes of everyone in the synagogue were fastened on him, 21and he began by saying to them, “Today this scripture is fulfilled in your hearing.”
Jesus replied, “Let it be so now; it is proper for us to do this to fulfill all righteousness.” Then John consented.
I don’t want to make excuses for myself or let Him down. At the same time I wish I could feel like I’m doing the right thing and making progress. I feel I need to drop everything and follow Him but I am surrounded by too much temptation and I feel I have to be patient but at the same the more I wait the more time I have to indulge myself with the life I am trying to give up. I need the Holy Spirit. I don’t know exactly what will happen to me when He comes although I’ve felt Him many times lately already. He one time gave me peace to not raise my voice to my mother although I was fighting the experience and I started to lose it. It is also like being fused with Jesus Himself and being His special tool, His word His hands ect. Maybe we don’t usually realize it is happening when it does? This is all so much more amazing and dramatic then I can put into words. I am no–We are not worthy.
Please pray for the descent of the Holy Spirit upon me. And pray pray pray for yourselves as well. And a BLESSED AND HAPPY NEW YEAR YEAR in which the LORD Will begin to heal us all in!
16He went to Nazareth, where he had been brought up, and on the Sabbath day he went into the synagogue, as was his custom. And he stood up to read. 17The scroll of the prophet Isaiah was handed to him. Unrolling it, he found the place where it is written:
18“The Spirit of the Lord is on me,
because he has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
and recovery of sight for the blind,
to release the oppressed,
19to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”
20Then he rolled up the scroll, gave it back to the attendant and sat down. The eyes of everyone in the synagogue were fastened on him, 21and he began by saying to them, “Today this scripture is fulfilled in your hearing.”

Catmom you’re such a trooper!