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i really need prayer right now. i have been through 8 years of financial loss in the stock market, equity loss in the home i had owned by myself since 1989, and physical loss since i broke my ankle/leg in 3 places in 2011. i have managed to keep my home by moving in with my son and daughter-in-law and caring for my grandson which was fine until i broke 3 bones in my ankle/leg going down the stairs in the house where we lived. i then lost the rest of the savings i had to pay bills and felt unwanted living with them as i could not take care of my grandson while i was recuperating. i went into a deep depression, but once i was released from the doctor i managed to find work after not working for over 10 years. the job was only seasonal, but 2 months later i found another job and i will have my 2 year anniversary the end of march. it has not been easy because i have endured a lot of pain working because i have to stand on my feet all day.
however, right now i need prayer to make a big decision. the prices in the market where my house is have risen enough i am thinking of selling my house. i got caught up in all the bills i got behind on when i broke my ankle/let except for one credit card. i have never been in debt collection before, and it is not fun. my house is rented and i cannot afford the mortgage without the tenants living there while it is on the market. i need to decide if i should list it this upcoming week and then pray that it sells. their lease is up the end of march. if it sells, i could pay off the mortgage, the commission, offer a settlement on the debt they are calling for and pay off two other cards. i am going to be 62. i would be left with a little bit if i can get what i want for the house. it just seems like for so many years after the loss of my parents and divorce, i managed to keep my head above water and be financially responsible. i just have this overwhelming feeling that my life has been a total failure and after thinking i had made good decisions and been financially responsible, i have still lost everything and still could. i feel like i am in over my head and haven’t been able to feel a lot of joy in life for the past 7 years. please pray that i can sense what God wants me to do right now. i don’t have any savings left and live paycheck to paycheck.
so if my tenants continue to lease the house, if anything big happens not covered by the home warranty, i don’t have the cash to fix it. my tenants like the house. i wish i could move back there, but i do not have the funds to move back and find a job quickly without getting behind in mortgage payments again and i don’t want to do that.
i need prayer . . .
thank you.
7 sorrows
however, right now i need prayer to make a big decision. the prices in the market where my house is have risen enough i am thinking of selling my house. i got caught up in all the bills i got behind on when i broke my ankle/let except for one credit card. i have never been in debt collection before, and it is not fun. my house is rented and i cannot afford the mortgage without the tenants living there while it is on the market. i need to decide if i should list it this upcoming week and then pray that it sells. their lease is up the end of march. if it sells, i could pay off the mortgage, the commission, offer a settlement on the debt they are calling for and pay off two other cards. i am going to be 62. i would be left with a little bit if i can get what i want for the house. it just seems like for so many years after the loss of my parents and divorce, i managed to keep my head above water and be financially responsible. i just have this overwhelming feeling that my life has been a total failure and after thinking i had made good decisions and been financially responsible, i have still lost everything and still could. i feel like i am in over my head and haven’t been able to feel a lot of joy in life for the past 7 years. please pray that i can sense what God wants me to do right now. i don’t have any savings left and live paycheck to paycheck.
so if my tenants continue to lease the house, if anything big happens not covered by the home warranty, i don’t have the cash to fix it. my tenants like the house. i wish i could move back there, but i do not have the funds to move back and find a job quickly without getting behind in mortgage payments again and i don’t want to do that.
i need prayer . . .
thank you.
7 sorrows

