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TCThomas
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Hello,Im new here and I would need some spiritual advice.Im 17 years old and I was baptised at age 10.So one night I was thinking about confession and suddenly i realised that i never had a valid confession and i got really scared to the point i couldnt breathe,at that moment i realised I had about 2500-3000 mortal and venial sins, so i thought i would go to a general(life) confession, but there is one problem i didnt feel contrite,at the moment of realisation of the unconfessed sin i was in heavy atrition,but that feeling quickly faded.One day when i was going out of school and i fell in despair,i wept to god “If i cant go to heaven please let my mommy and family go!”.I always loved Jesus and Mary but i never realised how much sins i acumulated because of heavy shame.I have big mental problems and i had a pretty horrific childhood, and because of that i picked up some sinful behaviours at a younger age before i realised it was sinful and i couldnt get rid of it.Please, someone help me!My parishioner told me my counscience wasnt dull or that my heart was hardened,but he told me i was sensitive and because of the psychological aspect i couldnt truly feel contrite.I dont know what to do, im in a horrible situation,psychologicaly im almost going insane.When i was examining my counsience i didnt realise some things i was doing on a pretty regular basis were sinful.Please,please help me!