Yes, and all can be forgiven by Christ - but since you are a former Catholic I am assuming you no longer believe that so there is no point in arguing that with you - you are only here to harm people’s spirits.
I am here because this man is sitting in the rubble of his life wondering why he rejected his family and avowed faith and messed up his life and the lives of others and how he can “come home” out of the rubble. I have no doubt whatsoever that Christ will pull up a rock out of the rubble to sit on and discuss the matter with him shortly, one way or another.
The OP has plenty of company with this problem. There are more than enough lawsuits bankrupting the Church over this very same problem. There are plenty of priests and bishops who have likewise abandoned their own sacred vows and messed up their own lives with addiction and others’ lives with abuse of one sort or another. There are plenty of husbands and wives who have likewise abandoned their own sacred vows to marriage and family and likewise messed up their own lives with addiction and others’ lives with abuse of one sort or another. The OP has plenty of company in his sufferings, his family has plenty of company in theirs, and a whole lot of Catholics have in recent years become “former Catholics” over how this problem has adversely affected their families, neighbors, and former Church communities.
The Church is quick to write off this problem of abandoning vows and becoming addicted as merely “these people are bad apples!” …yet fails to explain how somebody devotes years of their lives to prayer and study then just magically ends up a “bad apple” and why such obviously “bad apples” were allowed to remain entrenched in positions of power such that it took civil court proceedings and lawsuits to dislodge them. Likewise the boards here are full of people struggling to understand how somebody devotes years of their lives to sacred vows of marriage and family and ends up addicted to pornography or running off with some girl or guy they just met.
I don’t buy the “bad apple” theory.
I don’t buy the “this guy is just a sinner and we’re all sinners, it’s just that some sinners are worse than other sinners and we just happened to accidently put and keep them in positions of power” theory.
I don’t buy the “these people just all somehow mysteriously went temporarily insane” theory.
I don’t buy the “satan/demons made them do it” theory.
I also don’t buy the “let’s profess charity” while condemning a “former Catholic” as “only here to harm people’s spirits” theory.
What I do see, over and over again, is a problem of people raised with clear concepts of people having power and control over one another and respect for one another generated only from fear…
while lacking basic kindgergarten skills in relationship, partnership, and communication between people and a respect for others generated from compassion for others.
Basic kindergarten skills in communication, in sharing, in taking turns, in cleaning up after oneself, in taking responsibility for one’s actions and their consequences, in equality, in relationship, in partnership, in empathy, in respect generated from compassion for others… are lacking in every case.
These are essential kindergarten lessons in life that need to be learned.
Not having learned them eventually causes one’s life to be reduced… to rubble…
when the internal and external struggle for power and control becomes either domination-of-other or domination-by-other rather than
partnership, and an overcontrolled, overcontrolling, and out-of-control self.
Learning the essential kindergarten lessons of communication, sharing, taking turns, cleaning up after oneself, taking responsibility for one’s actions and their consequences, equality, relationship, partnership, empathy, and respect based on compassion rather than fear is how one begins to rebuild one’s life.
God forgives…
as a loving parent watches over toddlers falling all over themselves, all making mistakes, all learning… but the point is
learning…
