:hug1: dear Penguinchicky, God loves you so much, please don’t give up, go to church tomorrow and speak to the priest. Tell someone what you are going through, don’t carry this burden alone. In any case, Jesus is right there with you, ask Him to help you and give you strength. Try to trust in His love for you, and NO MATTER what you have done in the past, there’s nothing that God can not forgive and heal. Please don’t take your life. You are in my prayers.
dear Lord, please be with Penguinchicky and show her Your infinite love and mercy. Hold her close and heal her of all the pain she is going through. Help her to remember your Passion and the suffering that You went through to save her, and let this give her strength and courage. Please send people into her life who can help her, and direct her to a good priest who will be understanding and compassionate. Blessed Mother, please intercede for her and be with her at this time. Lord send your Angels to watch over and surround Penguinchicky so she will not be alone and will be safe from all harm. Amen +
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the Fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death, Amen.+
Try saying these prayers
Oh ever immaculate Virgin, Mother of Mercy, Health of the Sick, Refuge of Sinners, Comforter of the Afflicted, you know my wants, my troubles, my sufferings. Look upon me with mercy. When you appeared in the grotto of Lourdes, you made it a privileged sanctuary where you dispense your favors, and where many sufferers have obtained the cure of their infirmities, both spiritual and corporal. I come, therefore, with unbounded confidence to implore your maternal intercession. My loving Mother, obtain my request. I will try to imitate your virtues so that I may one day share your company and bless you in eternity. Amen.
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thine intercession was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee, O Virgin of virgins, my mother; to thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in thy mercy hear and answer me. Amen.
Jesus I trust in You +