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jazzy0710
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I’m at my whits end. I think I just may need to vent. Too much going on, and I feel like my head is going to explode.
My husband and I are in the process of trying to get a house and a car. You’d think I’d be on cloud 9, getting our first home and getting a car after not having one for 4 years. The truth is I lay awake at night absolutely terrified. I worry about how we are going to afford it ad what if we can’t and end up like one of those couples that fights continuously. I also worry that he’ll ruin this car like he did the other one by loading it to the max with camping gear and taking it up into the woods. I worry what if we don’t get approved and then we are stuck in this crummy apartment that we have been in for the last 3.5 years with a kitchen sink that backs up and nasty carpets that bother my allergies. Then the rent is climbing up in September to 775.00 and this place is definitely not worth it.
Then there’s the drama that we have had with my husband’s Father and Stepmother. I’m sure many of you remember the very first post I made on here about that. Things have gotten much worse. Not only will his Stepmother have nothing to do with me she is also mad at my husband. She deleted and blocked him from facebook. She sent him a text saying that she had the locks on the doors changed and that he could throw his keys away. This came after she learned that my husband only wanted himself, his sister, and his Dad to be together for lunch on Father’s day. My husband now feels like he can no longer visit his childhood home and he never hears from his Dad anymore after his Dad used to contact him every day. We constantly worry about my husband’s sister who is the same age as me (27) and still lives there(she’s trying to save money to get out) because she doesn’t handle stress well and my FIL has his share of issues with his wife and I guess they argue often and we worry about my husband’s sister’s well being.
Then comes the big one. The thing that’s causing me the most pain. Infertility. My husband and I have been trying off and on since last summer to get pregnant and with no luck. My doctor feels that my uterine wall thickened after having missed periods after going off the pill. I went off the pill in March 2012. Things should be back to normal now. I had a physical done as well as bloodwork. My doctor found nothing wrong with the physical and my bloodwork was normal. I don’t understand why I bleed for up to 13 days at a time and then have nothing for 4 to 5 days and then start spotting every other day. I have even bled after intercourse and it has been very fusturating. I was refered to a gyno but never heard from them. I got the number and I called and the receptionist was very abrasive. She told me that my file said I was only trying to get pregnant and was healthy otherwise. I explained that I bleed for as long as I do have missed work because I get so sick. She then replies that there’s nothing until September and that she’d be in touch then and hung up on me. I called my family physician’s receptionist and told her what happened and that I want the referral canceled and to go to someone else. My Husband also had a sperm count test done and we’re playing the waiting game for that as well. It just doesn’t help when people continuously ask when are you gonna have some kids and when my mom contiuously buys stuff and tells me to hurry up.
I’m so sick and tired of being sick and tired and crying!
My husband and I are in the process of trying to get a house and a car. You’d think I’d be on cloud 9, getting our first home and getting a car after not having one for 4 years. The truth is I lay awake at night absolutely terrified. I worry about how we are going to afford it ad what if we can’t and end up like one of those couples that fights continuously. I also worry that he’ll ruin this car like he did the other one by loading it to the max with camping gear and taking it up into the woods. I worry what if we don’t get approved and then we are stuck in this crummy apartment that we have been in for the last 3.5 years with a kitchen sink that backs up and nasty carpets that bother my allergies. Then the rent is climbing up in September to 775.00 and this place is definitely not worth it.
Then there’s the drama that we have had with my husband’s Father and Stepmother. I’m sure many of you remember the very first post I made on here about that. Things have gotten much worse. Not only will his Stepmother have nothing to do with me she is also mad at my husband. She deleted and blocked him from facebook. She sent him a text saying that she had the locks on the doors changed and that he could throw his keys away. This came after she learned that my husband only wanted himself, his sister, and his Dad to be together for lunch on Father’s day. My husband now feels like he can no longer visit his childhood home and he never hears from his Dad anymore after his Dad used to contact him every day. We constantly worry about my husband’s sister who is the same age as me (27) and still lives there(she’s trying to save money to get out) because she doesn’t handle stress well and my FIL has his share of issues with his wife and I guess they argue often and we worry about my husband’s sister’s well being.
Then comes the big one. The thing that’s causing me the most pain. Infertility. My husband and I have been trying off and on since last summer to get pregnant and with no luck. My doctor feels that my uterine wall thickened after having missed periods after going off the pill. I went off the pill in March 2012. Things should be back to normal now. I had a physical done as well as bloodwork. My doctor found nothing wrong with the physical and my bloodwork was normal. I don’t understand why I bleed for up to 13 days at a time and then have nothing for 4 to 5 days and then start spotting every other day. I have even bled after intercourse and it has been very fusturating. I was refered to a gyno but never heard from them. I got the number and I called and the receptionist was very abrasive. She told me that my file said I was only trying to get pregnant and was healthy otherwise. I explained that I bleed for as long as I do have missed work because I get so sick. She then replies that there’s nothing until September and that she’d be in touch then and hung up on me. I called my family physician’s receptionist and told her what happened and that I want the referral canceled and to go to someone else. My Husband also had a sperm count test done and we’re playing the waiting game for that as well. It just doesn’t help when people continuously ask when are you gonna have some kids and when my mom contiuously buys stuff and tells me to hurry up.
I’m so sick and tired of being sick and tired and crying!
