I think there's something really wrong with me

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Hi everyone,
I’m hoping for your help again, but this time it’s for myself …
I started praying the Rosary for the Rosary month after not praying it for a very long time. The past 2 days have been wonderful, I found the Scriptural Rosary website through CAF and have been using it. I have always struggled with staying focused while praying the Rosary so that website has really helped me.

Just now, before praying the Rosary, I was reading online about Padre Pio, and reading some intercession stories. Before I started the Rosary, I asked that Padre Pio help me and pray together with me. Not too long after I started the Apostle’s Creed I starting feeling very agitated and antsy. The feeling kept growing into some kind of anger, and I somehow felt that my mom was the cause of my agitation. She was sleeping near where I was praying and wouldn’t stop moving around and making noise though she was supposed to already be asleep. I’m not sure why but her nonstop moving got me extremely agitated. The anger kept growing to the point that I felt like I wanted to pull the Rosary in my hand apart and break it. I kept asking God to help me complete the Rosary and asked Padre Pio to help me pray, while part of me was not very happy that I was trying to finish praying. I was angry and agitated but I kept praying and finally finished it.

I’m supposed to be doing some bible study before I go to bed tonight, but I feel like I’m repulsed by the idea. I don’t know what this is, but it feels like there’s something really wrong. Has anyone ever experienced something similar?

Please say a short prayer for me, even just a few words to Our Lord, to help me with whatever it was I just experienced 😦

God bless you all,
Theresia
 
Pray for Peace

Lord Grant this person the peace of Christ.

Amen

Advice: Go to Confession and seek the Holy Eucharist. Not because you have done anything wrong, but because evil spirits hide behind rage anger and hate to trouble souls.
 
What psuedocenturian said. And… get out of bed to go pray, go into another room (assuming you don’t live in a one-room place… in that case, go outside), pray there. If you were praying out loud, your poor mother may have been trying to sleep. We should never put our devotions over the need of others.

Even if you’re agitated, repulsed, go ahead and go to the bible study. Nothing says you can’t go there not being 100%. I’ve found that when I’ve had feelings like this (and not just for religious reasons), when I go ahead and go, I find I enjoy it and it was a blessing to me. I will pray for you. And please, no worries. Everyone has this experience even the most devout.

The peace of Christ be with you.
 
Dear Lord,Take away the agitation and grant this person peace.

Amen
 
Deal Lord, please calm the storm in paseo’s spiritual life. :gopray:
 
paseo said:
Hi everyone,
I’m hoping for your help again, but this time it’s for myself …
I started praying the Rosary for the Rosary month after not praying it for a very long time. The past 2 days have been wonderful, I found the Scriptural Rosary website through CAF and have been using it. I have always struggled with staying focused while praying the Rosary so that website has really helped me.

Just now, before praying the Rosary, I was reading online about Padre Pio, and reading some intercession stories. Before I started the Rosary, I asked that Padre Pio help me and pray together with me. Not too long after I started the Apostle’s Creed I starting feeling very agitated and antsy. The feeling kept growing into some kind of anger, and I somehow felt that my mom was the cause of my agitation. She was sleeping near where I was praying and wouldn’t stop moving around and making noise though she was supposed to already be asleep. I’m not sure why but her nonstop moving got me extremely agitated. The anger kept growing to the point that I felt like I wanted to pull the Rosary in my hand apart and break it. I kept asking God to help me complete the Rosary and asked Padre Pio to help me pray, while part of me was not very happy that I was trying to finish praying. I was angry and agitated but I kept praying and finally finished it.

I’m supposed to be doing some bible study before I go to bed tonight, but I feel like I’m repulsed by the idea. I don’t know what this is, but it feels like there’s something really wrong. Has anyone ever experienced something similar?

Please say a short prayer for me, even just a few words to Our Lord, to help me with whatever it was I just experienced 😦

God bless you all,
Theresia
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I have issues sometimes with keeping myself in the right direction, sometimes I feel anger, sometimes agitation and its hard to focus. Just a suggestion as I’m not sure it would be completely correct, I’m new to Catholicism and well still learning. But I have a Saint Michael charm that I wear, and I’m finding that the more that I wear it and ask for his assistant the less I feel the negative presences around me. He was supposed to have helped in the battle against evil.

Love and Light darling, I hope you are able to get some peace. Maybe try getting a recording of the rosary on an Ipod and go for a walk. I live in a very non catholic home, and the moment I find a good recording that’s what I’m going to start doing. Its easier than frustrating those in my home.
 
I always enjoyed the website Come Pray The Rosary when I am feeling distracted but still want to do my rosary.

I add my prayers for your intention…

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

:crossrc:
 
Holy Michael the Archangel defend us in the day of battle.
Be our safeguard against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray,
and do Thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Host,
by the Power of God,
thrust down to hell, satan and all the wicked spirits,
who wander through the world for the ruin of souls.
Amen
 
Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

†

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

†
 
paseo said:
Hi everyone,
I’m hoping for your help again, but this time it’s for myself …
I started praying the Rosary for the Rosary month after not praying it for a very long time. The past 2 days have been wonderful, I found the Scriptural Rosary website through CAF and have been using it. I have always struggled with staying focused while praying the Rosary so that website has really helped me.

Just now, before praying the Rosary, I was reading online about Padre Pio, and reading some intercession stories. Before I started the Rosary, I asked that Padre Pio help me and pray together with me. Not too long after I started the Apostle’s Creed I starting feeling very agitated and antsy. The feeling kept growing into some kind of anger, and I somehow felt that my mom was the cause of my agitation. She was sleeping near where I was praying and wouldn’t stop moving around and making noise though she was supposed to already be asleep. I’m not sure why but her nonstop moving got me extremely agitated. The anger kept growing to the point that I felt like I wanted to pull the Rosary in my hand apart and break it. I kept asking God to help me complete the Rosary and asked Padre Pio to help me pray, while part of me was not very happy that I was trying to finish praying. I was angry and agitated but I kept praying and finally finished it.

I’m supposed to be doing some bible study before I go to bed tonight, but I feel like I’m repulsed by the idea. I don’t know what this is, but it feels like there’s something really wrong. Has anyone ever experienced something similar?

Please say a short prayer for me, even just a few words to Our Lord, to help me with whatever it was I just experienced 😦

God bless you all,
Theresia
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I think when someone is trying to seek God and start saying the Rosary, go to Adoration etc. is when they show up big time on the fallen angels’ radar. They’re not thrilled with you doing that. They will try to make you stop, and if they can’t they will try and distract you. Just a thought.
 
Robertanthony said:
I think when someone is trying to seek God and start saying the Rosary, go to Adoration etc. is when they show up big time on the fallen angels’ radar. They’re not thrilled with you doing that. They will try to make you stop, and if they can’t they will try and distract you. Just a thought.
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So true.
 
Robertanthony said:
I think when someone is trying to seek God and start saying the Rosary, go to Adoration etc. is when they show up big time on the fallen angels’ radar. They’re not thrilled with you doing that. They will try to make you stop, and if they can’t they will try and distract you. Just a thought.
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I agree. ❤️

St. Michael the Archangel,
defend us in battle.
Be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the Devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray,
and do thou,
O Prince of the heavenly hosts,
by the power of God,
thrust into hell Satan,
and all the evil spirits,
who prowl about the world
seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.
 
Underneath my anger there is always sadness.

Dear God, please bring peace to this family and wrap their home in your love. Help Theresia to grow in her spiritual life and remove all agitation. Amen
 
Dear Angel, in His goodness
God gave you to me to guide, protect, and enlighten me,
and to bring me back to the right way when I go astray.

Encourage me when I am disheartened,
and instruct me when I err in judgment.

Help me to become more Christlike,
and so some day to be accepted
into the company of Angels and Saints in heaven.

Amen.
 
Robertanthony said:
I think when someone is trying to seek God and start saying the Rosary, go to Adoration etc. is when they show up big time on the fallen angels’ radar. They’re not thrilled with you doing that. They will try to make you stop, and if they can’t they will try and distract you. Just a thought.
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That is 100% true. The ‘attacks’ can be obvious or camouflaged. I can almost always tell when the temptation to one of my greater weaknesses is about to show up. I have not always been successful in resisting it.

Last night, I was very agitated and ‘anxious’ while praying the Rosary. Sometimes I’m able to go on, because I figure I must really need to pray it if the pull away from it is so hurtful and obvious.

God bless and keep you.

St. Dymphna, pray for us. St. Michael the Archangel, pray for us. All saints in Heaven, pray for us.
 
Saint Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle; be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil. May God rebuke him, we humbly pray; and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly host, by the power of God, thrust into hell Satan and all the evil spirits who prowl throughout the world, seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.
 
Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.
 
Thank you all so much for your advice and prayers!
I didn’t know that other people also experience something similar, knowing this puts me somewhat at ease because at least it means there isn’t necessarily something wrong with me. I just thought it was a bit worrying because I literally wanted to pull apart the Rosary that was in my hands 😦

Most times things around me don’t distract me while I’m praying, but I find other times those same things get me very agitated and angry. My parents are both devout Catholics, but neither them or I usually pray out loud, not at least since we moved to this neighborhood of Jakarta (heavily Muslim populated, not that it’s the same everywhere here but people we know have been “visited” by their neighbors while they were gathering and praying together “out loud”), we’ve had to stop praying together because of this too and usually make our own time to pray.

I never thought of using a recording of the Rosary, that might be very helpful, thank you. I will also check out the Come Pray the Rosary website. And l’ll look into the St. Michael charm - though I’m not too confident to be able to find one here.

Again, thank you all so very much! God bless you and keep you safe always 🙂
Theresia
 
Holy Mother, please give Theresia the graces needed to keep praying the rosary. Please ask our Lord to fill her with comfort and peace. Amen.

Hail, holy Queen, Mother of mercy, hail, our life, our sweetness and our hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this vale of tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed fruit of thy womb, Jesus, O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary! Amen.
 
Fortify paseo with the grace of Your Holy Spirit
and give Your peace to her soul
that she may be free from all needless anxiety,
solicitude and worry.
Help her to desire always
that which is pleasing and acceptable to You
so that Your will may be her will. Amen.
 
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