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ChristopherG
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So I grew up in the Roman Catholic Church. I was always very active in the church and thought I had developed quite a strong faith. Traveled the world in search of faith attending world youth days. Was a member of my churches youth group and eventually assisted as a young man helping out as a leader.
One day I just.. Grew away from the church and severed all ties I guess.. My job moves me around alot, I simply grew away.
Over time after growing away from the church I also have grown away from some of the churches practices. I have a girlfriend now, we are not married but live together. No doubt I am guilty of breaking some of the seven deadly sins. I do not lead a model life anymore. And quite frankly the last thing on my busy mind has been.. Religion.
Two nights ago I woke up just after three, with my girlfriend moving around in bed next to me. She was speaking, quite loudly I might add, in several very... Violent sounding voices. When I could understand the English parts, it was about smashing and breaking furniture.
I was scared, so I shoot her and asked her what she was doing. She nonchalantly responded that she was fighting. I asked her what. She said she was fighting the "devil incarnate" ..Then just went back to sleep. Quite shaken I made my way out of bed and downstairs, turning all the lights on and looking for a bible (I still have a few in the house). And just sat downstairs praying untill the morning. I've had trouble sleeping since.
I am not certain if this is a "good" reason to go back to church, but I am going to return regularly now and try to get my life on track. I just do not want to go and show up for the first time at the church here talking about.. Demons and devils scaring me through my girlfriend. I am uncertain what to do here, I am afraid.