I’m going to try my hardest… I just want concrete proof of the existence of God. I just to be happy with myself again, and I want to be with my best friend in Canada.

I’m tired of seeking Truth – I want to find it. Wow! I’m feeling hopeless… One side wants me to believe, and the other side doesn’t want me to believe. I was a full fledged Atheist, but now I’m just wondering and questioning myself-- is there truly a God, and is religion real? I honestly don’t know anymore. I have people that say religion is just a self-motivated belief, and I have people say that Christianity is the true religion. I want to believe, but I don’t at the same time…
To ‘I need help’
From JAW642
Hello ‘I need help’ Please read my entire Reply carefully ]
You are looking for concrete proof of the existence of God. It certainly would be nice and easy, if God showed up on national television once a year to broadcast to the world that He does indeed exist. But He simply chooses not to do that. God usually does not speak to us verbally. If He did, then we would not need faith. We would not have to Believe, because we would just Know that God does really exist.
Many times in life, we are forced to use our intellect, our ability to think and reason, and to come to logical and reasonable conclusions about things that we cannot actually see and touch.
Jurors on a jury sometimes have to determine the innocence or guilt of a person, using deductive reasoning, even when the evidence is weak and circumstantial, ( and there is no videotape of the crime ). They must rely on their logic and reasoning abilities to come to a proper conclusion.
So is there a God? Try putting aside for the moment, the fact that probably 90+ percent of the human population, throughout the course of history, believe that there is a God, a Supreme Being. Put aside the fact that all legitimate religions believe in a God or a Supreme Being.
Now I want you to just use your own intellectual reasoning ability. Any reasonable person should know that Nothing comes from Nothing. In other words, there cannot be Nothing at one moment, and then Something, one second later. So the Big Bang Theory is NOT the Big Bang Fact, and cannot have happened to create the universe, unless there was a Supreme Intelligence behind it and Willing everything to happen that way.
Maybe you have already learned in school, that Matter ( atoms and molecules ), cannot be created nor destroyed. They can only change form, ( like ice into water or steam ).
So try looking up into the sky at night or during the day, and try telling yourself that this vast Universe, with all the Order in the Universe, came about as one big random Accident.
Think about how NASA can send a probe or a satellite, on a five year trip through space to eventually end up circling around the planet Jupiter.
It is simply illogical and unreasonable to conclude that this Ordered Universe, is NOT the Work or the Design of a Supreme Intelligence. And that Supreme Intelligence we call God.
I believe that deep down inside of yourself, you already know that you are not an Atheist, or an Agnostic. The simple fact that God does not physically speak to you every night, is not enough for you to conclude that God does not exist.
Life is really hard for a lot of us. And especially for a lot of teenagers.
You simply must start using your ability to think logically and reasonably.
Nobody can actually give you Concrete proof of the existence of God.
Try asking your best girlfriend in Canada, or anybody else, to give you Concrete proof that God does NOT exist.
In the final analysis, you have to decide to believe that God does exist, or to believe that God does NOT exist. We cannot obtain Concrete proof, of either belief, until the day we die.
Which belief is more logical and reasonable to you?
I’m sure that if your Mom came down with breast cancer, or some other serious illness, that you would be on your knees, asking God to help your Mom.
Sometimes accepting the fact that God does exist, is inconvenient for us, when we don’t want to follow all the rules of Religion, especially when we feel that what we want to do is normal and not really hurting anybody.
But God certainly does come in handy, when all else fails, and when we realize that He is our last resource for any kind of Help.
Please don’t let your questioning of all the religious rules, interfere with or influence your belief in a Loving and Merciful God.
Got already knows that you are a normal, sexual teen male.
Don’t allow satisfying your normal physical needs as a teen male, to keep you away from loving your God. The vast majority of males deal with male issues in much the same way.
You are only 16 with not a lot of girlfriend experience, so having bisexual thoughts and fantasies while you masturbate, is not really that unusual or uncommon, during the teen years. Because you are only 16, and because it is now most likely a habit for you, there is a very good chance that your masturbation does not count as mortal sin, if it is normally an automatic and spontaneous act, rather than a deliberate and planned act with the FULL consent of your Will.
You have not stated whether or not you have done this, but even actually experimenting with bisexual activities with other males, during the teen years, is probably more common than you may think. So I suggest that you do not try to permanently label yourself as bisexual or homosexual, until you are at least 20 or 21 years old. Until that age, you should simply describe yourself as having bisexual feelings or tendencies, which you may outgrow when and if the Right girl comes along.
Just remember that God loves you. I think you want to love Him back. Everything else that you do is secondary.
From JAW642 on 12/06/2011