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stuk_ina_moment
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Well I know I’ve been posting quite a bit about my state of emotion and what I’ve done. And I’ve been given a lot of good advice, and I would really like to thank everybody that has given me a kind word of encouragement. I’m sorry its been hard for me to bring my head up and go back to the way I was. I really miss my old self, a lot. I was always the guy at work or at the store with a huge smile. I was the guy always trying to get everyone to laught or at the very least smile.
I’m still that guy sometimes, or at least I like for people to think I am on the outside. Even thou this brought much pain for me it also led me back to the church. I’m sad sometimes because I feel like if gods not listening. But deep down I know that he’s listening to my prayers and answering them according to his will. I know when the times right he will bring that joy back into my life. I feel like he’s using this time to work on me and save me. My favorite story in the bible so far is the one about joseph and how god allows some many evil acts to happen but never abandones him. He stays with him till end and reveales his reason for josephs long and painful journey. Its been a really encouraging story for me. Even thou my suffering is in no way compared to that of josephs. Its a beautiful thing to know that god never abandones you. And obviously things do happen for a reason, you just have to find the greater good out of it.
I pray one day I can stop feeling like such a bad person and find peace. Summers almost over and will be coming into fall and winter. Fall and winter have always been such hard seasons for me. Not because of the weather but because of the troubles I went thru and all the emotions that I still feel are strongly connected to them. Not to mentions next month will be my birthday. I really don’t want to think of that at all. These next few months will prove to be the hardest for me. I’m gonna have a great number of obstacles to face and I pray that god dosent abandon me.
This forum has been really supportive and great, I’ve had a great deal of questions answered. I would also like to apologize to everyone because I know I sound like a broke record with my emotions, and I imagine it gets very annoying reading my negative posts.
I’m still that guy sometimes, or at least I like for people to think I am on the outside. Even thou this brought much pain for me it also led me back to the church. I’m sad sometimes because I feel like if gods not listening. But deep down I know that he’s listening to my prayers and answering them according to his will. I know when the times right he will bring that joy back into my life. I feel like he’s using this time to work on me and save me. My favorite story in the bible so far is the one about joseph and how god allows some many evil acts to happen but never abandones him. He stays with him till end and reveales his reason for josephs long and painful journey. Its been a really encouraging story for me. Even thou my suffering is in no way compared to that of josephs. Its a beautiful thing to know that god never abandones you. And obviously things do happen for a reason, you just have to find the greater good out of it.
I pray one day I can stop feeling like such a bad person and find peace. Summers almost over and will be coming into fall and winter. Fall and winter have always been such hard seasons for me. Not because of the weather but because of the troubles I went thru and all the emotions that I still feel are strongly connected to them. Not to mentions next month will be my birthday. I really don’t want to think of that at all. These next few months will prove to be the hardest for me. I’m gonna have a great number of obstacles to face and I pray that god dosent abandon me.
This forum has been really supportive and great, I’ve had a great deal of questions answered. I would also like to apologize to everyone because I know I sound like a broke record with my emotions, and I imagine it gets very annoying reading my negative posts.
. So cheer up! 