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I have his book that contains this list. In it he has a questionnaire designed to help you find your root sin. Personally I didn’t find that section of the book as helpful as others, but some might.
I suspect that the Holy Spirit wanted not only to take the lid off, but then to shine a light on it, so that it was not hidden from me. While it was hidden, maybe it was a bit like a virus in my soul. Experiencing the rage helped me to think it through, be grateful to God and take it to him for help. I thought I had forgiven the person for the damage they caused in their weakness, but maybe I needed to forgive them for this specific thing.The Holy Spirit nudged a resentment into a rage? That is an odd way to put it.
Do you mean withdrew the strength to keep a lid on it? What was the lid doing? Was it a natural try at charity or a natural try at pretending more charity than you had?
(I would think that God willing, the deceased has moved on and is enjoying the Beatific Vision…and perhaps interceding for your freedom.)
There is always more laundry; I suspect we get only as much of what we ask for as we can bear. If you think about it, it was like that with our parents, too. They didn’t tell us everything about adulthood when we were too small to react to some of the truth with anything but terror and misunderstanding.I suspect that the Holy Spirit wanted not only to take the lid off, but then to shine a light on it, so that it was not hidden from me. While it was hidden, maybe it was a bit like a virus in my soul. Experiencing the rage helped me to think it through, be grateful to God and take it to him for help. I thought I had forgiven the person for the damage they caused in their weakness, but maybe I needed to forgive them for this specific thing.
All I know is that it was cleansing and there were subtle differences between this experience and other times I become angry. I can’t put my finger on it but think that God in his mercy was helping me. And I suspect that there may be more hidden dirty washing that needs laundering.
Be not afraid.I still react to adulthood with terror and misunderstanding.