You ask a question, but you donāt want an answer, unless itās the one that youāve decided on. Do you see that? Do you understand that is its own problem?
To reiterate what has been said:
- the Council of Trent is not at issue here, we no longer run around hurling anathamae, the laws of the Church in regard to these matters have been codified
- the 1917 Code is not in effect: as to the Latin Church, it was abrogated by the 1983 CIC; as to the Eastern and Oriental Churches, it was abrogated by the 1990 CCEO
- other than bodily force against a Metropolitan, a Patriarch, or the Pope, there are no reserved penalties in effect under the CCEO
- the Orthodox are not ānon-Catholicsā
- the Orthodox are not schismatics
- the Orthodox are not heretics
- worshipping in an Orthodox temple is not any kind of a sin, let alone one punished by excommunication
- participating in the Mysteries in an Orthodox temple, including the Mystery of the Eucharist, is not a sin and is, in fact, specifically allowed under the Codes, although Catholics are requested by our hierarchs to not do so if the Orthodox ask us not to do so
This is going to sound harsh, but I donāt know any other way to get the point across (and Iām unconvinced that even absolute bluntness will serve the purpose because you seem to abandon any thread once someone calls you to task, lest they convince you of anything that youāve decided not to believe). Iāve read enough of your posts that itās clear to me that you are not easily dissuaded from this path of emotional chastisement that youāve elected to follow.
You acknowledge issues with scrupulosity, but you say nothing of having done anything to deal with these. Looking at other posts that youāve made, you need to seek out both spiritual and secular help - a confessor and a mental health professional. You are on a slippery slope, one that is going to cause you extremely serious problems (not that you donāt have serious ones already, by your own admission and as evidenced by your writings) if you donāt take responsibility for doing something about them and do it soon.
Your scrupulosity, your obsessiveness, your absolute fixation on being right in wanting to somehow be spiritually unworthy, all of these things are both spiritually and psychologically unhealthy. You are, undoubtedly a good person, much as you want to believe yourself not to be.
You are also an exquisite example of the kind of person who should avoid posting on internet religious fora because you appear unable to discern the differences between what constitutes the reality of human frailty in the exercise of oneās spirituality and a personal spiritual utopia the perfection of which is beyond human achievement. And, regretably, if you forum shop enough, you will find others who will support you in this type of deluded thinking - because folks like that pervasively inhabit such venues.
None of us are worthy. Thatās because we are human. Thatās because God gave us free will. He expects us to strive for perfection. He does not expect or demand that we emotionally flagellate ourselves in the effort to do so because, when we do, we waste time and energy that could be expended in prayer, good works, spiritual enlightenment, and just being good persons - for Him, for ourselves, for our loved ones, for the world.