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babylonsfalling
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I’m not private messaging you Bohm. You’re question has been answered anyway. If you don’t want to be subject to the same analysis you put God under then you don’t need to respond, which I suspect will be the case here.Private message me. I started a thread for the purpose of having a question answered. It seems you want to turn this into something “personal” lol (do you have a grudge against me or something?)
I also don’t have a grudge against you. It’s just that you appear to have a huge, unaddressed, issue of vacillating faith, which you seem to want to justify by the fact that you can’t understand some of the things God does, or allows to happen. The problem is that nobody else understands everything about God either but that’s where faith comes in.
Your best help here (as with myself and most other people too) might lie in putting yourself under the microscope instead of God. In your case, you might pay attention to the fact that despite your doubts, God still remains in your head, even though God is a being which you already doubt, and which you cannot touch, smell, see, taste or hear in any physical sense. So despite your doubts, and despite the fact that you have no carnal-sensory reason to believe He exists, and despite the fact that you’re again back to calling yourself an atheist, you still can’t stop going on about God. That’s very conflicted and you can learn a lot from that fact, IF you can divert even a fraction of your analysis onto yourself, AND if you can do that self analysis honestly.
You will never get all your questions answered and personally, I suspect that’s because God demands a certain degree of faith. He wants us to reach beyond our fleshy perspective of 5 senses, and beyond our worldly, finite understandings. He wants us to take a leap of faith into the spiritual, rejecting the carnal and rejecting our human level understanding of things. That’s not Biblical but I still suspect there is some truth to it because faith is such a big topic in both Old and New Testaments.
Also be aware that you already have a degree of faith, shown by the fact that you can’t leave this subject alone. Acknowledge this faith as something which exists within you despite your haunting doubts. Small faith can move mountains of doubt out of the way. Prayer helps but I think you first need to acknowledge your existing faith in God so that you’re at least praying to a God that you’re NOT in denial of.