Why does he not reveal himself more? Please allow me to state that I am not trying to be rude or get myself banned. I am a science student who has been trying to find some evidence of a higher power, but I just can’t seem to feel any being trying to relate to me. I have had what one might term “spiritual” experiences. For example, one summer vacation during my high school years, I was extremely happy. I stayed up until dawn many days and listened to music. I biked in the sun, and I was happy. To me, it was the essence of being alive. I still experience happiness, but it is not as often and usually only occurs after I have completed a great deal of work. When I think of the halcyon days of my childhood, I feel as though there could have been a God figure involved, but many of my current days are too repetitive and seem to make me think that life is a long series of pointless actions and reactions. Now that I need a God figure most, I can’t seem to find any. I hate the idea of living in delusion, and I want to know: Has anyone really felt a connection to a higher being?
Lack of a divine or demonic intervention.
In order for people to believe in something,
they need constant reassurance that it is real,
lest they forget.
People who do not believe in God have no need to seek him out,
when a calamity befalls someone we put a label on it, we try to explain it’s cause.
I guess that’s what we call closure, it helps stop the wandering about why it happens.
Like me, I was a total hard-core Atheist that once mocked God, probably blasphemed more than anybody on here. But one day, while I was jokingly pretending to be an Exorcist Priest, I had just watched the Rite w/Anthony Hopkins, I was pretending to make the sign of the cross as if casting a demon out, I was facing this wall in my house, where my GF’s clothes are stacked up on a Table, and I decided to make the Sign of the Cross cause I felt something weird in my room, like something was watching me. No sooner than I make it do I noticed movement, looked over and saw the clothes were falling over. The table jerks a little, and the bed bolts up and down. Kind of freaked me out.
Anyways, I did some stuff on the computer, then towards the end, about to retire to bed, I am turning the lights out, and notice that the last lamp that I was turning out had this little clock radio next to it, it was blinking, it had 1:21 on it, which told me that almost an hour and half ago, the power went out, yet I never noticed any power outages, but that the area in my room that had the clothes fall down, directly opposite on the other side of the wall is the AC outlet where the radio clock is plugged in.
I had fell victim to the Lies of the Devil that he did not exist, and therefore did not need God’s help, well no sooner then I had learned that the Devil was real, then I guess it got his attention that I was going to change, so he starts messing with me.
Ever since I turned my heart back to Christ, all kinds of bad things have been happening to me, just yesterday some lady was driving in the medium, trying to beat the light, didn’t see me turning in and wrecked the whole driver’s side of my Scion XB vehicle.
Within one month, I’ve been kicked out of College and two Fast Food restaurants, but I think for good reason. Those places had much heathen and hedonistic activities going on, they were very sinful. The devil is pissed that I have now abandoned him, and thru these attacks I have come to believe that if the devil is real, I had better hope that Jesus is real, cause if not, we are all ****ed. But don’t believe anything I say, continue to bear Christian symbols on you and around you, and just watch these small miracles happen, you’ll see as I have seen, that these demonic occurrences are very real.
Another month has passed and things have died down, though sometimes at night, a malevolent force makes itself known to me at or around 3am. It takes about 15 minutes to wrestle with this thing. I’m still trying to identify which demon it may be, current signs that I have been finding, leave me to believe it is either Legion or Baal. Hail Mary’s and Our Fathers work, but I wish I knew more prayers.
You may think this is a Joke post, but I take it very serious. But like I said, don’t believe anything I say, just make the Sign of the Cross, while saying, “In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost”, when you are entering places that may cause fear, do it in the middle of the night, when no one else is up. Treat it like a Bloody Mary game. That’s how I did it, and BAM, total conversion, so great was the effect, I am discerning to become a Priest.
