Im losing my faith

[Orionthehunter]

Boy does the Lord work in mysterious ways! I went to church with the intent of going to a charasmatic prayer group meeting thinking I needed some prayers big time. Well while there flipping through a bulletin waiting for the meeting to start I noticed this posting for a spiritual healing support group. I decided this was more along the lines of what I needed at this time in my life, to heal and grieve, so I went to this meeting instead. It feels like its exactly where I need to be to get over my anger, disappointment and grief and to reconnect me with God. Talk about the Holy Spirit interviening when necesarry. Thank you all so much and yall please keep me in your prayers. This is going to be tougher than I thought but at least I finally feel like I have some direction and that I am finally on the right road.

Tara

I heard a story once (or read it as I don’t recall) that might help you as you grieve. The child had died recently after birth and of course the parents were grieving and filled with many of hte same emotions you feel. The Pastor gave them the following to consider: “As sad as you are about your loss, consider that God has already determined that your child has fulfilled God’s plan for him. How glorious such a realization that your child lived his life according to God’s plan. Maybe you need to try to figure out what that plan was as I’m quite sure it involved you.”

 

[JimR-OCDS]

Tara,
sorry to hear about your miscarriage and you’re in my prayers!

My wife and myself went through this sort of struggle early in our marriage where she had two miscarriages. Then, after our first child, (we wanted 5 ) we were told that she could not get pregnant again. However, she did get pregnant, but after three months, required surgery, to prevent a miscarriage. Everything looked like it was going fine until my wife hit week 26 in her pregnancy, then she went into labor. They delayed her for one week in the hospital, but then the baby had to be delivered by c-section. My son was less than 3lbs. Things went well for 2 days, but then everything collapsed and he was according to the doctors and nurses, dead.

My wife went through a crises of faith, such as yours. Why would God allow this to happen? We’ve been faithful, praying and trying to do the right thing for Him. Has he abandoned us?
I merely accepted God’s will and trusted in Him.

We asked the hospital to call a priest to come in an give him the sacrament of sick and healing. A priest we never met, annointed him and then stopped and asked, "what’s the baby’s name?. I said, Robert James. The priest smiled and said, that’s my name. A peace came over us that I can’t described. We knew, that whatever happened, he was in God’s hands. However, at that moment, after receiving the sacrament, he came around and in 6 weeks came home.
I never met that priest again and I sometimes wonder if he was actually an angel sent from heaven? Angel or not, he was heaven sent, I have no doubt about it.

My son is 26 years old today and has cerebral palsy which effects his walking, but otherwise he is normal.

So, trust in God’s will, you will. Things will work out for the good, you’ll see!

Jim

 

[kage_ar]

Praying for you!

 

[Charleston]

My wife miscarried and the following three months may have been the roughest of her life. She was very depressed, frequently crying, and just barely functional. She got better after eventually going to confession and letting God know how angry she was with him for taking away what was (is) our second child. The healing process was slow but she eventually got better and stronger in her faith. Now after many years she feels a loving spiritual connection to our miscarried child.

My prayers for you and your family, Tar.

 

[leonie]

I lost a baby last year and I was very depressed afterward for several months. I still have difficult when someone announces she is expecting. And, I have trouble going to baptisms.

I am so sorry for your loss.

It sounds like you are on the road to healing. Take care of yourself.

 

[Traditional_Ang]

Brothers and Sisters:

As I read the posts on this thread, I’m astounded by the pain many of the people here have experienced and have managed to live through.

That you would dillingly share it is proof of the Grace of Gor in your lives and the amoung of love for your sister.

Tara, you are child of God for whom Christ died. Whatever guilt you feel from the death of your child is from the Accuser of the Brethren and the Father of Lies, and is unmerited.

As the Apostle St. Paul said in his Letter to the Romans:

*Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Rom 8:34-35, 38-39 NIV*

Your Brother in Christ, Michael

 

[nkelly]

my prayers go out for you with sincerity.

i would definatly recommend picking up a copy of “story of a soal” Padre Pio’s personal letters to his spiritual director. itwill change your life.

pax christi

Hello Justin, I believe that book is called “Secrets of a Soul”.

God bless,
Noel.

 

[blessedstar]

No you are not, you just temporarily do not ‘feel’ faith.

I am so very sorry for your sad loss. I am not surprised you feel as you do about your faith. Your faith is thriving, it is temporarily masked by your grief.

You are suffering and when we suffer it is hard to feel anything but the pain of suffering, so you do not feel anything for God like you did before, but this will pass. This is not anything strange and presently your love for God is in bearing this cross, this suffering in the way that is personal to you.

You have enough to deal with with your loss without worrying about your faith. I can assure you, your faith is fine, so be kind to yourself and your husband and don’t ask too much of yourself. Presently go through the motions, go to Mass and love your husband and that is all you can do; actually to do that as you are is a great faith that you have when you are under the cross as you are.

When you go to Church you will experience the love of Jesus in the people there and I am sure everyone will be most kind to you.

You and your husband are in my heart and prayers.

 

[wcknight]

So sorry for your loss, my prayers are with you. God never abandons us. It is precisely at times like these that He is there to comfort us. The sorrow we face now will be replaced by joy. My mom lost 3 kids. I never knew them but my older sister remembers her hugging some kids crying unconsolably.

To lose a child is probably the most heart wrenching human experience imaginable. My heart goes out to you. God understands that you are heart broken and He will never leave you. Talk to your loved ones or to the folks here.

 

[Zooey]

 

[tkdnick]

Hey Tar,
So sorry to hear about your loss, and so grateful to hear that you have found a place to help you.

I will definitely pray!