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TrueLove
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Dear Teresa,
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I shall pray for the peace of the Lord to be with your family. It seems your want to keep your concerns private. I like to pray more specifically for people. So when I read general prayers, I pray generally and when people are more specific, I feel more for them, so I pray with more feeling.
Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. I think about all those that pray for me. Even those that generally pray for me without knowing who I am. It gives me strength.
If things didn't work out with Brant, I wanted to go around the world and help those less fortunate than me. But it is not something I would do because my heart desires. I love to help others, and I do. But I would be leaving because I could not bear to stay where I am. I would leave my studies and my parents behind. They would need me as well. So it is not an option I would like to take. Because after giving selflessly, I would get back much joy, but there will be a feeling of emptiness and loneliness too. It has happened before.
I am trying to get on with my life and better myself, baby step by baby step. Something inside me tells me things will turn out well. So today I started eating again after two weeks. I really wish that things became more clear to me. But I also wish that it will not make me fall again. It is hard enough to carry my cross, but falling and falling makes me not want to get up sometimes. I truly admire Jesus for carrying the cross for us and standing up for us.
I soul is healed but my heart aches and bleeds. I am at a very vulnerable point in my life. I extend my arms to receive any help from anyone and pray for the Holy Spirit to give me strength. Please pray for me. I truly need it.