I'm so emotionally worn out

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I’m worn out. I’ve been praying for healing of a chronic condition for two years and my lack of energy is due to resisting God’s will, and I can’t do it anymore. It’s taken all my strength. Please pray that if I am not to be healed, that I accept and trust God’s will and His love, and that I trust Him to help me live with this. I know this is the right thing to do. I know it’s what I must do. I fear that maybe I don’t have the strength to do it.

And please pray that he doesn’t forseake or punish me for being beligerent and untrusting. I was very angry tonight, and had a meltdown in which I doubted Him and his love. You see, I equate not being healed with God not loving me. But I am ready to change, and to surrender this problem completely to Him. My heart wants to let it go and give it to Him. I have to, but I need an increase in courage and faith.

Thank you for your prayers. I’m sorry if this is rambling, but I’m just so tired.
 
I can pray for you dear Denise.Take care and God bless you.
 
Praying for strength, faith, peace, hope and love for you!
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Lord, have mercy.
Christ, have mercy.
Lord, have mercy.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amoung women
And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners, NOW and AT THE HOUR of OUR DEATH. Amen.

St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle.
Be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him, we humbly pray and do thou, Oh Prince Of the Heavenly Host,
By the power of God, cast into hell Satan and all the evil spirits who prowl
About the world seeking the ruin of souls. Amen.
 
God understands the toll that this world takes. Living in a human body that doesn’t function as it should is hard (massive understatement).

“I believe Lord, help my unbelief”
“I trust you Lord, help my lack of trust”
“I love you Lord, help my imperfect love”

I think God values these types of prayers from us because they are sincere.

I’m sorry you are going through this. I just said a prayer for you.
 
Be at peace, sister, God doesn’t take petty revenge just because we melt down.
All relationships have their ups and downs, including our relationship to God.
Just bring it to Him, “I lost my cool tonight. I do believe, Lord, help my unbelief.”
Then simply rest in His presence. Rest. Don’t do. Don’t try. Just simply be with Him.
I’ve been reading a red letter Bible the last couple months, and meditating on the words of Jesus and have found it to be an enormous help.
You’re carrying a heavy cross, but it’s okay to remember you have a loving Father that you can lift up your arms and ask Him to carry you. Some problems are of such a nature that we can’t fix them by our own efforts, and we get carried along with it. That’s when we have to fix our eyes on Jesus and not look at the storm.
Adding my :pray:t2::pray:t2::pray:t2:To yours.
❤️
 
You are in my prayers, Denise. But you know, perhaps God has a reason for giving you this chronic condition. Perhaps it isn’t you resisting God’s Will but Him allowing you to have this condition in order to help others.

Don’t despair of this condition. Instead, praise God and thank Him for the blessings in your life. He won’t give you more than you can handle even though it seems like it at times.
 
You having a condition doesn’t mean that God is scorning you. I suffer from depression and psychosis and I have many times asked God to heal me-- but He hasn’t yet. He still loves me, though. Perhaps He is allowing you to suffer in order to draw you closer to Him. What I mean is, you feel pain when your condition affects your life, which leads you to prayer. The condition is there only to humble you and to get you closer to God.

I will pray for you.
 
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May God have mercy on you, and us all. It is wonderful that you are finally submitting to His will. He knows—and only wants—what’s best for us.
 
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DeniseNY said:
I equate not being healed with God not loving me.
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May the Holy Spirit come upon you .

May He convince you that God never stops loving you .

May He fill you with trust .

May He enlighten you so that you know who God really is .

Perhaps the words of this simple hymn may help you…

 
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Also, don’t forget the basics of health–to the extent that you are capable, eat nutritious food, exercise, get out into the fresh air and sunshine, adequate sleep, don’t isolate yourself from depression, but reach out to your friends and family, journaling might help, etc
 
Just finished asking Our Lady of Lourdes for her intercession for you Denise.
 
I appreciate everyone’s kind words and prayers. I feel a little bit better this morning. But it’s strange. I am so physically sore; it feels like I ran a marathon last night.
 
prayers offered for you Denise and your
medical condition. praying for your faith and trust in God’s will.
 
@DeniseNY the other day @(name removed by moderator) told me I should ask ask Jesus to be with me, and it worked.
 
That to me is a sign that you still have faith. If you are Catholic, there’s a prayer at mass that says, “the desire to please Him is itself His gift.”
 
DeniseNY said:
I equate not being healed with God not loving me. But I am ready to change, and to surrender this problem completely to Him.
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There, now lassie, you’ve cracked the nut within which lies the answer to your prayers. Our state of health has nothing to do with our standing with God. Multitudes of sick and crippled people have lived out the Christian life devoted entirely to serving Him and never having the faintest sniff of a healing. I can think of many reasons why we are left to suffer as the great majority of us do with one thorn or another, the primary one being that we are meant to learn from whatever state we find ourselves in. And here’s a grand conundrum for you to ponder; maybe we asked for whatever it is we have. Let me illustrate with a personal example-

Many years ago I prayed to become more patient. As a young and impressionable teenager I felt that God was likely to reach out with a fingertip, like the paintings on the Sistine Chapel ceiling, and just make me patient. But life is not meant to be that easy. How was this prayer answered? In a way that I could not help but to succeed; he allowed an illness to fall upon me that taxed every resource I had for years, a mental illness; Panic and Anxiety Disorder along with a fine helping of Depression. I had the choice of either carrying on or giving up. To be honest there were many days when I did give up. But I lived through them and carried on some more.

Did it work? You bet your keg of ale it did. Over a period of about 20 years (God’s seldom in a hurry) I went from a self absorbed, arrogant, spoiled adult brat to a slightly less abrasive model of myself. I learned to be compassionate, generous, understanding and, yes, patient, where I never had been. The process won’t be complete till I breath my last, so that’s kind of a downer. But you can see how our expectations can be thrown entirely for a loop when we don’t recognize the divine plan until after the fact. If we knew what was coming, would we respond in the desired ways? I think not. Blessings to you, dear. I will pray that you carry on with strength and the desire to serve his Utmost with every breath, and that sufficient respite will be given that you not get too discouraged.

Finally, the key to overcoming the disappointment we feel within our own lives is to offer many prayers of support for someone else. There are always people worse off than we are. 🙂
 
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CelticWarlord said:
There are always people worse off than we are. 🙂
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This is true, although I think Denise very frequently thinks of and prays for others.

I felt so lousy this morning, I was tired and I discovered that a bunch of shingles fell off my roof at one of my properties, when I already have to have a new roof put on the property in another state that my husband was occupying, so now I have to arrange for two roofs in two states at once.

Then I went to Mass and the guy walking in ahead of me, who was my age or a little younger, was on crutches with some huge brace and maybe a prosthesis on one leg. And the priest who was saying the Mass, with a lot of help from the deacon, explained to us that he was not doing well, healthwise, and that he did not want to go on disability because then he wouldn’t be able to say the Mass any more as it’s considered “his work” and he would need to stop “working” in order to get the benefits, so he is trying to continue to say Mass by just saying the essential parts and asking the lay ministers and deacon to handle everything else, including distributing communion because the priest cannot stand up for more than a couple minutes. He stumbled over a couple of the prayers and you could tell he was just making such an effort to get through that Mass, I felt bad for him. I went away thinking my problems were really not so big by comparison to others.
 
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