In April, I was going through a lot of anxiety about my life as well. Worry and despair and sleepness nights, thinking somehow my worry was going to solve my problems. I was embarrassed by my dependence on my worry. I went on a retreat, with a little pink book (Searching for and Maintaining Peace, by Father Jacques Phillipe)
During the retreat (mostly silent) I finally received this from the Father, while in prayer, this scripture, and I think this will help you.
John 15
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.
Philippians 4:6-7
Don’t be anxious; instead, give thanks in all your prayers and petitions and make your requests known to God. And God’s peace which is beyond all understanding will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
My prayer for you is this:
Lord God, our Father, our Loving Father, take this man in your arms, as a loving Father, and let him know that he is loved and cared for. That you have amazing plans for him, that things may seem dark now, but even when all seems lost, it really isn’t… there’s something much bigger going on than we mere mortals can understand. I pray that this man opens his heart and will to you, so that whatever wonderful thing you have planned will be accepted with joy and with zeal. I pray that he abides with You, Lord, that he learns to trust you Lord in all things, and by Your Grace, persevere in all that you have planned for him. Make in his heart, a new creation, bright and strong and witnessing to Your Mercy and Love in all things.