I'm tired of always being misunderstood ,and I want to stop praying for others

[Maximus1]

Sometimes I wonder where the tradition of looking for scenarios for sacrifice started and why. Having lived life for a while now, life provides an ample supply and opportunity to endure storms. There is no need for the manufactured. God does not require that we be eager to face storms, only that we face them as Catholics when they come.
Reality is a never-ending flow of peaks and valleys. This observation is my personal one. The prayer of petition seems in my humble opinion a prayer for faith and strength to weather the valley and fortitude to endure to the next peek. Patience. Life includes a long stretch with intermittent suffering, and our tradition affords a path to grow and transform thereby. Our faith informs us that the " always wins" ethos of the modern secular world requires an almost perfect dedication to missing all value and truth in what our faith teaches. The " attractiveness" of this false ethos belies it’s illusory promise. It is a grand deception of self. A tragedy paved in gold and promise.
The " trending" term these days is
" cruciform" reality. That Jesus shows us " the way" obviously, and that all of reality is recapitulated via cross and resurection. It isn’t new, it is newly trending you might say. The description is pretty far from the prosperity Gospel sales job. The Cross will never be thought of as a happy moment. Jesus died horribly but Easter follows Good Friday. There is no eternal life without death. And that fate awaits us in both it’s moment of dread and joy. Why is a mystery. We can lament that reality isn’t a great party followed by an even bigger joy, but the cruciform observation serves the purpose of accepting that reality is not this. Some say God does not only fully understand our reality but that Jesus, in part, came to offer a message of solidarity with his children. God sharing our fate out of Divine love, and absolute free will. I cannot help but be drawn to this idea so I share it.
Point is perseverance and staying on course in a storm is the test of faith that comes without seeking it. When it does it is time to rest in God’s hands until the storm passes. It will.

 

[sorrowful1]

@Minks Just your words are enough, thank you so much. Yeah, and like you said, I did prayers to the Lord seeking comfort and let Him be the Judge. in the past, I used to “retaliate”. I prayed to Him that I wish I could really make them understand that it’s never been my intention to offend them. But then I’ve left everything to Him.

It’s " okay" now. I mean I talk to them “happily” as if not a word was ever said. I’ve asked for forgiveness to the Lord for them as well as myself. But, sadness is I’ve lost my “sparks”. If there were no prayers ( or God to be precise) I wonder what would happen to me.

 

[sorrowful1]

@Maximus1 Your insight is so deep!

“Point is perseverance and staying on course in a storm is the test of faith that comes without seeking it. When it does it is time to rest in God’s hands until the storm passes. It will.”

True. Once again, thank you for the insight and a reminder. God bless!!!

 

[Toi_nhan_31]

why I should spend an hour with the rosary devoting the prayers for people who can easily pierce my heart.

First of all, I want to tell you that I can really relate myself to your story.
Your prayers for others can be done for many reasons. We should not love only those who love us, we should not pray only for those who show us kindness.
We can pray for others for the good things they’ve done but we can also pray for them so that they would realize what they have done was right or wrong.
Jesus even said “Love your enemy”.

Silence sometimes can be easily misunderstood. I’ve got misunderstood many times too. When necessary you just have to speak. You can’t take things for granted.

 

[Minks]

But the wonderful thing is that we DO have God! We just must keep reminding ourselves. I anguished, literally for decades, before I finally got it through my head that it didn’t matter to others how many hoops that I jumped through, so I quit jumping. Mostly. It’s hard to stop a lifetime habit of trying to please others, even in no-win situations, but I do try to be very pleasant, no matter what is said, and I keep any “comeback” comments to myself.

Google: James Daily, Florida, execution

I’m sorry, but I don’t know how to do links. Read some of those articles, especially the most recent ones. See if your perspective of your situation changes. Mine has, drastically. I pray for him off and on every day. My heart breaks for what he has endured.

 

[Minks]

Sometimes I wonder where the tradition of looking for scenarios for sacrifice started and why. Having lived life for a while now, life provides an ample supply and opportunity to endure storms. There is no need for the manufactured. God does not require that we be eager to face storms, only that we face them as Catholics when they come.
Reality is a never-ending flow of peaks and valleys. This observation is my personal one. The prayer of petition seems in my humble opinion a prayer for faith and strength to weather the valley and fortitude to endure to the next peek. Patience. Life includes a long stretch with intermittent suffering, and our tradition affords a path to grow and transform thereby. Our faith informs us that the " always wins" ethos of the modern secular world requires an almost perfect dedication to missing all value and truth in what our faith teaches. The " attractiveness" of this false ethos belies it’s illusory promise. It is a grand deception of self. A tragedy paved in gold and promise.
The " trending" term these days is
" cruciform" reality. That Jesus shows us " the way" obviously, and that all of reality is recapitulated via cross and resurection. It isn’t new, it is newly trending you might say. The description is pretty far from the prosperity Gospel sales job. The Cross will never be thought of as a happy moment. Jesus died horribly but Easter follows Good Friday. There is no eternal life without death. And that fate awaits us in both it’s moment of dread and joy. Why is a mystery. We can lament that reality isn’t a great party followed by an even bigger joy, but the cruciform observation serves the purpose of accepting that reality is not this. Some say God does not only fully understand our reality but that Jesus, in part, came to offer a message of solidarity with his children. God sharing our fate out of Divine love, and absolute free will. I cannot help but be drawn to this idea so I share it.
Point is perseverance and staying on course in a storm is the test of faith that comes without seeking it. When it does it is time to rest in God’s hands until the storm passes. It will.

I agree with what you’ve said, while knowing that sometimes the storm lasts for many years.

 

[Minks]

sorrowful1:

why I should spend an hour with the rosary devoting the prayers for people who can easily pierce my heart.

First of all, I want to tell you that I can really relate myself to your story.
Your prayers for others can be done for many reasons. We should not love only those who love us, we should not pray only for those who show us kindness.
We can pray for others for the good things they’ve done but we can also pray for them so that they would realize what they have done was right or wrong.
Jesus even said “Love your enemy”.

Silence sometimes can be easily misunderstood. I’ve got misunderstood many times too. When necessary you just have to speak. You can’t take things for granted.

You’re so right! If only we could always figure that out at the moment that the need for clarification occurs!

 

[sorrowful1]

@Toi_nhan_31

Indeed! Love your enemy , that’s what I’ve embraced after taking up Christianity but sometimes, it becomes mighty difficult to stick to it.

As for my “attitude” of being silent, it’s been difficult to improve it or change it. To make matters worse, I’m an introvert who finds it hard to open up to just about anyone. And there you go, the struggle remains.

 

[Toi_nhan_31]

it becomes mighty difficult to stick to it.

I agree. It’s difficult but not impossible. Pray continuously and God will give you the answer. And will pray for you today.
We might get disappointed and frustrated but not because of this we should stop to love. Because the biggest failure is being unable to love.
About being introvert. I’m too an introvert. Many times I felt misunderstood and hated for being so. But listen! Being introvert is not a bad thing. Be yourself!
But don’t misunderstand being introvert with being timid or shy. Being introvert doesn’t mean you avoid expressing and defending yourself when it’s needed.

Transform this negativity into a motivation to grow!
Maybe this is an important moment to take some changes and be more mature.
Try to be more brave in confronting people!
I wish you all the best

 

[BlushingOrange]

Sometimes I just sit back and remember that we are all human, we are all flawed, but God made us all. We are all children of God, He has a purpose for all of us, and He loves us all the same.