What I mean by spiritual attack is something I really don’t like to talk about. It is a long complicated story with events that go right back to my childhood when my mother went through a phase where she believed she was a witch and brought things into our home for many years like oiji boards, tarot cards ect., all the while pretending to be christian like everyone else and making us go to church every sunday which to say the least was confusing and scary. Misfortune always followed those things.
She told me she was a “natural” witch and so was I and that we came from a long long line of witches. I don’t follow that life style but it still haunts me to say the least, there are times when I feel such massive degrees of guilt over things I shouldn’t feel guilty about which leads to anxiety and depression to the point where I can’t even accept a birthday present from my husband because I don’t feel deserving or worthy.
It causes physical symptoms which I have had checked out by my dr. and there is nothing to it, I even had an mri done for “silent migraines” and nothing showed up. Things are much better than they used to be but there are times in my life when those old thoughts and feelings creep up so badly that it is comparable to post traumatic stress and maybe that is all that is is but I really don’t know and I appreciate all of the help that I can get.
