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lynnehelen
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I am in recovery from a frightening case of cellulitis, which can quickly become life-threatening, Terminix has not resolved the ghost ant problem and we may have roots growing into our plumbing, 10-15k to fi x and I was supposed to be getting the house but wouldn’t be able to afford that and other necessary repairs.
My husband is fixated on gettingo me out of the house to go stay near son and my parents but i think we both want space from each other. At the same time I worry about him as my mother tends to get ideas about howis I shouldn’t be able to talk with him, and he mysteriously “loses” is phone or forgets the charger, tonight she had him turn it off and when I called to talk to her he was, of course, busy with friends.
Although I may have been an insanely poor mother it is still true that I AM his mother there are certain places in a child’s heart that are meant for his real mother, as in mine for him. People go to the cottage, now attached to the restored home they have retired to, when it’s the end of the line. My grandmother died there, and my mother used to put Cinnamon the cat there because he bit my sister. I couldn’t stand it there last year and fled back here. I fear for him, picturing him there with the eye injury and his slight, malnourished frame.
Please pray for Godliness for my mother in continuing to handle her part of this difficult situation, and for my father’s conversion, it is right in front of him but he has been blinded to it. Please pray that my injured son, is not led by my father into the same blindness, r I know and trust that God has much in store for him and yet bad ideas can harm vulnerable minds. We used to listen to the Chaplet of Divine Mercy set to music on the car radio, now I know what to call it, he was spellbound by it at 4 years of age. It is going through my mind now and I am praying that he can hear it as he sleeps. The radio station changed a lot and they don’t play it any more.
Please pray for discernment as I deal with these circumstances and events in the context of my grief over the abortions. It leaves me open to memories of my former sinful life and I am having a hard time making sense of things like the cellulitis and God’s goodness, justice, and mercy, I fear his just punishment, but it also is a comfort, but I don’t want to be punishing myself or misinterpreting so many life-long events and situations that are coming back to me as my pain over my lost children is finally released.
I particularly need prayers in a specific regard I cannot state, egregious sin that makes me so sick of myself I want to die and can’t blame anybody for anything, not that I should.
Blessed today with a new PCP which is all-female and all-Catholic.
Thank you for your prayers, not out of the woods yet.

My husband is fixated on gettingo me out of the house to go stay near son and my parents but i think we both want space from each other. At the same time I worry about him as my mother tends to get ideas about howis I shouldn’t be able to talk with him, and he mysteriously “loses” is phone or forgets the charger, tonight she had him turn it off and when I called to talk to her he was, of course, busy with friends.
Although I may have been an insanely poor mother it is still true that I AM his mother there are certain places in a child’s heart that are meant for his real mother, as in mine for him. People go to the cottage, now attached to the restored home they have retired to, when it’s the end of the line. My grandmother died there, and my mother used to put Cinnamon the cat there because he bit my sister. I couldn’t stand it there last year and fled back here. I fear for him, picturing him there with the eye injury and his slight, malnourished frame.
Please pray for Godliness for my mother in continuing to handle her part of this difficult situation, and for my father’s conversion, it is right in front of him but he has been blinded to it. Please pray that my injured son, is not led by my father into the same blindness, r I know and trust that God has much in store for him and yet bad ideas can harm vulnerable minds. We used to listen to the Chaplet of Divine Mercy set to music on the car radio, now I know what to call it, he was spellbound by it at 4 years of age. It is going through my mind now and I am praying that he can hear it as he sleeps. The radio station changed a lot and they don’t play it any more.
Please pray for discernment as I deal with these circumstances and events in the context of my grief over the abortions. It leaves me open to memories of my former sinful life and I am having a hard time making sense of things like the cellulitis and God’s goodness, justice, and mercy, I fear his just punishment, but it also is a comfort, but I don’t want to be punishing myself or misinterpreting so many life-long events and situations that are coming back to me as my pain over my lost children is finally released.
I particularly need prayers in a specific regard I cannot state, egregious sin that makes me so sick of myself I want to die and can’t blame anybody for anything, not that I should.
Blessed today with a new PCP which is all-female and all-Catholic.
Thank you for your prayers, not out of the woods yet.

