Not much to add to what crowonsnow said. (Great name, BTW! Schwarzaufweiss

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Life is wonderful and complex. Great experiences and sometime bad things happen. Usually, for most people, the good is significantly more than the bad. Right now, I am looking forward to travel to Europe by a transatlantic cruise and will stay with my grandson (and the other members of my family) for many months. Isn’t that a great reason to be happy?
As for hoping to have some form of afterlife: it would be
great not to be confined to a few decades of existence. I would prefer life here, but if there is a continuation, I would welcome that, too. I would be more than happy, if I could meet my parents, and tell them again, how much I love them. (Fortunately I did it when they were alive). I just cannot believe that there is.
Of course, there is no hate in me toward believers. They are free to conduct their life as they see it best. Moreover, I know that they have something I don’t have. They have the feeling of unity with their respective deity, and they may experience religious rapture, which - as I was told - is a wonderful thing to have. Of course something akin to that can be achieved by intense meditation, or taking some drugs, too.
None of the so-called philosophical “proofs” for God are even remotely convincing to me. (The 5 proof of Aquinas were adequately refuted by Kant.) They are all based upon invalid premises, undefined and undefinable basic assumptions. In other words, they are the equivalents of asking the question: “what resides to the north from the North Pole?”. Invalid questions, without a possibility of answers.
Let me ask you something. You believe that the natural universe needs some explanation for its existence, or the existence of some of its attributes. For you the answer: “it is just what it is, without need of explanation” is insufficient. Yet, if the same question would be directed toward God’s existence, you would easily accept that God needs no explanation for his existence, God just exists. So you entertain the same principle (as we do) that there is something final, without need for explanation, which just “is”. Why are you surprised that for us, atheists, the final existence is the natural universe? It needs no “external” cause, it needs no explanation, it just “is”.
I am not even invoking the principle of Occam’s razor, though it is tempting. The problem is that you substitute something which clearly exists (the natural universe) with something for what there is absolutely no proof. (You may say that there is “evidence”, but that evidence is clearly insufficient for the atheists.) And in this process you invoke “magic”. Just how did God create the universe? He “willed” it? How is that different from magic? How is that an explanation? How does that clarify the process?
Sorry, if I said stuff beyond the intent of this thread. Please disregard this post if Idid. Best wishes.