, and I find that on some points I cannot reconcile the two.
It is the same with me.
I look at it this way, however, that if the Jesus I know is who I know him to be, then the church who delivered him to me will certainly be able to explain and reconcile the issues I see between what the church says and what occurs to my reason through my study of scripture and theology.
I grant them that respect that I turn repeatedly to the church as being correct to clarify and explain until I understand and they always do. I expect correct answers from St Thomas Aquinas and that is why he did not get by with one reading, but three, of his Summa Theologica.
A note: When I read the Bible I expect the correct interpretation to come up equaling the Catholic teaching and I expect Church to be able to explain why the other teachings have been incorrect and simply private interpretations - so the church gets no rest until I understand because I know they do know the answer that can quench my thirst to know.
I am not easily satisfied; I have studied Luther, having read most of his Works more than once; I study the Bible using Greek and some Hebrew to the point where I can even help the church explain itself in it’s Doctrine.
I wholeheartedly crave what I used to condemn as a Lutheran, a highly educated Lutheran.
When I became a Catholic I wondered if I was committing apostasy, sending myself to condemnation. But when I became confirmed it was like I was never so alive in my past.
I really did feel like I was dying and afraid, and then everything was more real than it has ever been. For instance confessing my sins directly to Jesus, to the Father, was never to me as life-giving and refreshing as hearing the Absolution from my priest after a good confession, a confession to a man. How could such a thing be?, but it was.
I do know that it is not given to everyone to know this or to seek it.