E
erine
Guest
This has been said better before, but it’s something I’ve known intellectually for a long time and only just now clicked in my heart so I wanted to share.
There are certain levels of suffering and injustice (indeed probably most, regardless of the intensity) that don’t have an answer, save for love. It is absolutely a fact that Christ redeemed suffering and by nature of His being Himself, and that we can share in Christ’s sufferings and we do and grow closer to Him in that and it can be used to save souls.
But for me the crucial turning point was realizing that even before I get into the theology of it, the simple fact of Him being love, and His love joining me in my pain, is the only satisfactory answer. The cross is the means to this end, but it is the end itself I’m focusing on.
In short, my meditation was on the parts of me that don’t want to trust Him fully because of past sufferings, and my thinking “what is the answer?” and Love is the answer–and He is love of course.
Then I realized why even though I have discerned the call to marriage, I was too obsessive over it because I thought somehow I needed that romantic love as my “answer” to what happened to me. Jesus Himself is the love I need. Then whenever He sees fit to fulfill my vocation to marriage, it will be so that my spouse and I can love and help carry each others’ crosses together to heaven.
Anyways, I know this has all been said before and isn’t profound but it bears repeating and it finally clicked for me after years of hearing people say “trust God” without telling me how! Now I know how, thanks to His healing and love. Yay!
There are certain levels of suffering and injustice (indeed probably most, regardless of the intensity) that don’t have an answer, save for love. It is absolutely a fact that Christ redeemed suffering and by nature of His being Himself, and that we can share in Christ’s sufferings and we do and grow closer to Him in that and it can be used to save souls.
But for me the crucial turning point was realizing that even before I get into the theology of it, the simple fact of Him being love, and His love joining me in my pain, is the only satisfactory answer. The cross is the means to this end, but it is the end itself I’m focusing on.
In short, my meditation was on the parts of me that don’t want to trust Him fully because of past sufferings, and my thinking “what is the answer?” and Love is the answer–and He is love of course.
Then I realized why even though I have discerned the call to marriage, I was too obsessive over it because I thought somehow I needed that romantic love as my “answer” to what happened to me. Jesus Himself is the love I need. Then whenever He sees fit to fulfill my vocation to marriage, it will be so that my spouse and I can love and help carry each others’ crosses together to heaven.
Anyways, I know this has all been said before and isn’t profound but it bears repeating and it finally clicked for me after years of hearing people say “trust God” without telling me how! Now I know how, thanks to His healing and love. Yay!