There are children going hungry in the third world right now. Are you going hungry for them? How many calories have you had today? Are you disconnecting your internet so you can send that money to feed them? Are you selling your house and renting a cheap room somewhere with a few other families and getting a few more jobs so you can use that extra money to save third world children?
No, you’re not. It’s just empty words to say you would go hungry for it, when there are plenty of starving kids you could be going hungry for right now and aren’t.
There are no empty words for me. You’re accusing me of being a hypocrite and that is really inappropriate. Personally, I don’t care what you think about me. I believe I explained that I need my computer so that I can do what I am here to do. I’m not allowed to discuss personal revelations and I won’t. There are things about me that you do not know and will not know because I am not going to tell you. But I want you to know that not every person in a “civilized” country is above the poverty line, is in good health and able to hold down a job, and doesn’t have a ton of medical expenses she needs to pay because of a severe injury received while protecting the rights and health of people like you who then hound her with questions in an attempt to put her on the spot and either “boast” about her charity work or admit she is a liar and a hypocrite.
I am going to tell you two things and then I am not going to respond to any more questioning put to me about this:
(1) I do not lie. I am a sinner, just like everyone else, but I am very, very careful not to lie. It’s the one sin I do not commit and I don’t commit it because in the past I did and it became easier to do each time I did. So I stopped cold turkey and I’m not going to begin again to placate you.
(2) I am not going to list the charities I donate to and the amounts of money, goods, and time I donate to them or discuss fostering children in Third World countries. How I donate money, goods, and time is my business and is between myself, those charities and organizations, and God.
Now, please do not ask me again.
I’m not saying you should give that up, just don’t say that you’d be willing to sacrifice everything for a strangers’ child. Communicating with the world is obviously more important to you than using the money you spend to pay for internet/computer to feed a starving child. (For that matter, you could communicate with the world using the library’s computer and internet.

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Aren’t you funny. Ha ha. I am going to give you a hint (the only one you will ever receive from me). There are certain people who cannot go to the library and use the computer there. They are:
(1) the severely injured, home-bound disabled people who can’t legally drive and can’t afford taxis, and live in a town with no public transportation;
(2) those who take medication with severe side effects so that it takes them much longer to use a computer than “normal” people;
(3) those who try to make appointments at the library to use the computer and are turned down because they cannot get transportation to the library at the only times the computers are available;
(4) those people who have severe back injuries and who can’t sit in chairs to use the computer at the library, but must lie on their sides because that’s the only comfortable position for much of their entire freaking awful painful lives.
(5) those people who suffer from psychotic depression and/or panic disorder and/or agoraphobia and/or PTSD and/or MPD and who can’t even get ten feet inside a library before they end up in a huddled mass in a corner, knowing they are dying and praying they have the strength to get through the door.
I’m in that list, in more than one category. Now please, let it be.
I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with this, the vast majority of people are like this. It’s normal and natural. I’m only being hard on you because frankly I find it upsetting when people make unrealistic claims about the kinds of sacrifices people should be willing to make and they’re willing to make without actually doing it.
There is something wrong with you making assumptions about me when you have absolutely no idea what I do, what I am, what I go through, and how ** I SERVE GOD.** You are judging me and that is not your place.
It is abnormal to consider a structure as being more valuable than any person on earth. I’m not making unrealistic claims. You are being unrealistic and cold when you make your remarks about killing people. It makes it sound like you’re culling a herd of springboks. I find it offensive, nauseating, and repugnant.
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