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Cguy0980
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Sometimes I experience arousal (sometimes at random, as is normal for a teenager progressing through adolescence) however a great sexual desire, and urge to masturbate comes over me. The slightest movement triggers some sort of sexual excitement and desire to masturbate however, I refuse to satisfy this desire. As the excitement escalates, I find some sort of pre ejaculatory fluid musters - is this or any part of my experience sinful? Occasionally I find myself subject to nocturnal emissions, with no prompt of lust at all. Sometimes these are accompanied by dreams - in which various temptations/ desires are present yet, as in real life, in the dream I too (subconsciously) appear to refuse such temptations, such as viewing particular websites - which in the dreams I am tempted to do.I disapprove upon every opportunity to lust yet during these dreams or bouts of temptation I feel extremely displeased in myself, and feel as if I have let god down. Have I sinned in any manner through such dreams, or during times of desire.