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Is it wrong… to want to be with Jesus? I guess you could say die, but not in a bad way. I want to be with Jesus in Heaven. I desire to “go Home.” I yearn for His face. I want to be with the Lord, away from the sufferings and pains of this world. I want to be lifted out of this valley of tears. Just thinking about being with Jesus, who loves me and cares for me more than I can ever imagine, fills me with such joy.
Please dont think I would EVER try to kill myself, or even consider it. I would NEVER do that. Its a horrible sin, and would separate me from God. Just the thought of killing myself is horrific, and disgusting, and makes me sick. God created us and God alone is the One who brings us Home again.
I just wanted to know if its wrong to feel this way, and if anyone else has ever or does feel this way. Thanks
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Jacob, I’ve felt like this the better of 47 years…since I was 5 or 6 it seems. I’m 47 now, happily married with 3 wonderful children… But I really want to go home. But I have to do penance and works of mercy to help those around me. That’s what keeps me going. I have a responsibility to my family and I love God far above all of this. So I join in with Christ’s suffering and offer up the pain ans suffering for the forgiveness of sins…mine and my family in purgatory and on earth.
 
St. Paul addressed this issue quite nicely in last Sunday’s second reading. He longs to see God and to go to Heaven but accepts his duty to stay on Earth just a little while longer so he can convert sinners to Christ.

Of course, we are not on the level of St. Paul in converting sinners to Christ but we still have God’s work to do here on earth. And just as God is patient with us, we have to be patient with Him and trust that He will take us in the appropriate time for Him, whether it is five days from now, five years from now or 50 years from now.
 
St. Paul addressed this issue quite nicely in last Sunday’s second reading. He longs to see God and to go to Heaven but accepts his duty to stay on Earth just a little while longer so he can convert sinners to Christ.

Of course, we are not on the level of St. Paul in converting sinners to Christ but we still have God’s work to do here on earth. And just as God is patient with us, we have to be patient with Him and trust that He will take us in the appropriate time for Him, whether it is five days from now, five years from now or 50 years from now.
If you knew the level of my suffering you’d understand the sado masacistic nature of what I’m about to say. I hope for 50 years more if not longer. I hope to go straight to heaven in the end and make sure all of my loved ones get clear from purgatory. I hope that those that have gravely offended me are forgiven and make it to heaven as well. God is good. He’s so good to me. So, I know the life my children have ahead of them and I pray that they choose vocations leading to the priesthood and religious life. They possess my wife and my genetic makeup…anxieties…lots of it…
 
Thank you all so much. God truely is good. Even though I may suffer here on earth, I do so for God. In the words of Saint Faustina, “Suffering is a great grace; through suffering the soul becomes like the Saviour; in suffering love becomes crystallised; the greater the suffering, the purer the love. (57)”

Although that may be hard to accept and understand sometimes, it is true. We need to join our sufferings with those of Jesus. We’re here for a purpose, and that is to do God’s Holy Will. And one day God will call us home. Thank you all so very much. I’ll keep you in my prayers. I hope to see you all one day, when God calls us home. 🙂 God Bless
Jacob :signofcross:
 
It absolutely is not wrong. It is a beautiful desire. But, there are things for you to do here first.
 
Is it wrong… to want to be with Jesus?
It’s not wrong at all. Our souls long to be with their Creator, Savior, Lord. It’s a good thing. Like everyone else said though, we all have a purpose in this life – to help others, to bring them to Jesus, so we have to be patient and try to find and fulfill our purpose first, and then we will see Jesus one day.

I often think how nice it would be to be able to just get a hug from Jesus. ❤️ How amazing would that be!!! I know it sounds simplistic, but I really long for that – I know it would strengthen me in ways I’ve never known. Of course, I suppose I wouldn’t ever want to leave such an embrace, so it’ll have to wait until He decides it’s the right time. 😉
 
Is it wrong… to want to be with Jesus? I guess you could say die, but not in a bad way. I want to be with Jesus in Heaven. I desire to “go Home.” I yearn for His face. I want to be with the Lord, away from the sufferings and pains of this world. I want to be lifted out of this valley of tears. Just thinking about being with Jesus, who loves me and cares for me more than I can ever imagine, fills me with such joy.
Please dont think I would EVER try to kill myself, or even consider it. I would NEVER do that. Its a horrible sin, and would separate me from God. Just the thought of killing myself is horrific, and disgusting, and makes me sick. God created us and God alone is the One who brings us Home again.
I just wanted to know if its wrong to feel this way, and if anyone else has ever or does feel this way. Thanks
Jacob :signofcross:
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Jacob, if you were not here to write this post,
I, for one, would have missed out on a real blessing
of knowing that there are others who feel the same way I do. We must stick together as long as we can to be an encouragement to each other to fulfill the purposes that GOD has called us for.
Such as posting meaningful and encouraging posts like this one from your heart.
We are not suicidal for wanting to be with JESUS,but if I didn’t want to be with JESUS, I might be in danger of eternal suicide.
What else can we do but carry our cross every day and be the best servant of GOD that we can be.
Be of good courage and know that JESUS is with you every step of the way.
Your brother in CHRIST,
Steve
 
Is it wrong… to want to be with Jesus? I guess you could say die, but not in a bad way. I want to be with Jesus in Heaven. I desire to “go Home.” I yearn for His face. I want to be with the Lord, away from the sufferings and pains of this world. I want to be lifted out of this valley of tears. Just thinking about being with Jesus, who loves me and cares for me more than I can ever imagine, fills me with such joy.
Please dont think I would EVER try to kill myself, or even consider it. I would NEVER do that. Its a horrible sin, and would separate me from God. Just the thought of killing myself is horrific, and disgusting, and makes me sick. God created us and God alone is the One who brings us Home again.
I just wanted to know if its wrong to feel this way, and if anyone else has ever or does feel this way. Thanks
Jacob :signofcross:
Jacob, if you were not here to write this post,
I, for one, would have missed out on a real blessing
of knowing that there are others who feel the same way I do. We must stick together as long as we can to be an encouragement to each other to fulfill the purposes that GOD has called us for.
Such as posting meaningful and encouraging posts like this one from your heart.
We are not suicidal for wanting to be with JESUS,but if I didn’t want to be with JESUS, I might be in danger of eternal suicide.
What else can we do but carry our cross every day and be the best servant of GOD that we can be.
Be of good courage and know that JESUS is with you every step of the way.
Your brother in CHRIST,
Steve
Story of a Soul: The Autobiography of St. Therese.
You will find that she has lots of desire to be with the Lord. If you haven’t read it yet, I would really recommend it. She teaches us a lot of spirituality and the desires to be with the Lord.

God bless.
 
There’s a poem by St. Teresa of Avila that expresses your sentiments.

Here it is. I don’t know if she composed it originally in Spanish or Latin:

I live, yet no true life I know,
And, living thus expectantly,
I die because I do not die.

Since this new death in life
Estranged from self my life has been,
For now I live a life unseen:
The Lord has claimed me as His own.
My heart I gave Him for His throne,
Whereon He wrote indelibly:
“I die because I do not die.”

Within this prison house divine,
Prison of love whereby I live,
My God Himself to me doth give,
And liberate this heart of mine,
And, as with love I yearn and pine,
With God my prisoner I sigh:
“I die because I do not die.”

How tedious is this life below,
This exile with its grief and pains.
This dungeon and these cruel chains
In which the soul is forced to go!
Straining to leave this life of woe,
With anguish sharp and deep I cry:
“I die because I do not die.”

How bitter our existence ere
We come at last the Lord to meet!
For, though the soul finds loving sweet,
The waiting time is hard to bear.
Oh, from this leaden weight of care,
My God relieve me speedily,
Who die because I do not die.

I only live because I know
That death and hope is all the more secure
Since death and life together go.
death, thou life-creator, lo!
I wait upon thee, come thou nigh:
I die because I do not die.

Consider, life, love’s potency
And cease to cause me grief and pain.
Reflect, I beg, that, thee to gain,
I first must lose thee utterly.
Then, death, come pleasantly to me.
Come softly: undismayed am I
Who die because I do not die.

That life, with life beyond recall,
Is truly life for evermore:
Until this present life be over
We cannot savor life at all.
So, death, retreat not at my call,
For life through death I can descry
Who die because I do not die.

O life, what service can I pay
Unto my God who lives in me
Save if I first abandon thee
That I may merit thee for aye?
Such yearning for my Spouse have I,
Dying because I do not die.
 
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