It’s hard for me to conceive of spending an hour in prayer.
To pray is to ask for something. My prayer does not include enough worship.
I am reassured by scripture, James 1:5 “If any of you lacks wisdom [and who doesn’t?] let him ask God who gives to all men generously and without reproaching, and it will be given him…”
It’s hard for me NOT to spend at least 40 minutes (usually 50) in front of the Tabernacle whenever possible.
Every time when I begin to pray, I can’t really concentrate and I don’t know what to talk to Jesus. But then when time passes my Adoration is more ‘in tune’ and, after roughly an hour, I would gradually feel bored and leave the church. I always put aside my phone, wallet, watch and glasses on the pew, so I’m pretty amazed at how Jesus ends our conversation without my looking at the time.
Say the Rosary and begin your every prayer with a ‘Come Holy Spirit’. Rosary is the shortcut to Heaven. A school of prayer. May I promote the Rosary throughout my life on Earth.
My every prayer is like a random conversation. I am always long-winded and have too much to tell my dearest crush in the Tabernacle…
The following is basically what I say in every of my prayer:
Sorry Jesus I was in a hurry just now and the weather is so hot, so I’m sweating all over and my face is dirty.
I don’t know how to pray - as you know I always forget what to tell you. But all I, a big sinner and useless servant unworthy of your graces, can do is sacrifice my time and bring myself to you- I bring my ‘existence’ [being] to you.
I hope you are not too bored at church when everyone in the world forgets about you. I have nothing to ask for. All I want is to love you and love you more.
I’m too stupid to understand the mystery of life, my heart is too small to love, so please help me love you. Even if I’m saying gibberish and you think I’m insincere, please forgive me and make me more sincere. I hope you wouldn’t find me tedious, haha - I know you are always ‘auscultating’ every inner voice within my soul and you are the only one who is serious about every of my word.
I shall wait patiently for you just as you do - I really want to be your friend.
Ah! Please do not forget about the poor souls in the Purgatory as well as all those I’ve not prayed for!
I know you are working mysteriously even though I can’t feel it during my prayer. Of course I wanna you to give me peace and more graces, but I also have to learn to love you without condition. So feel free to work as you wish - I don’t like being threatened to do something, so I won’t do the same to you haha!
Byebye Jesus - Sorry for speaking gibberish. Have a nice afternoon! Don’t forget about me after I leave you - my heart is still in yours! I may sin right after my Adoration as you’ve witnessed before, but my heart is always with you!
By the way, don’t forget to bring in another one to replace my position and spend some time with you…hope you’re not bored or tired after your lunch, haha!