Well I was saying the Act of Contrition last night and as I got to the amendment part, a dear friend popped in my head whom I love being around with. Although being around that friend can cause sin, I don’t think it can truly be the near occasion of sin described in the act, even though it’s possibe for me to sin when around that person (especially when I become careless with my speech) the same way I can around other people.
As I got to the ’ I firmly resolve…’ part I had a sort of opressive feeling that went like,
it won’t be true unless you lose contact with her, and being the srupulous nerve wreck that I am I figured it might be a temptation for me to choose between her company and God. I panicked assuming it was satan tempting me and quickly said Amen to end the prayer and choose God. Now I don’t know if I prayed that I will firmly try and avoid her or what, which really really bother’s me. If it’s God’s will for me to do so then I will try, even though it really really
really will be hard since I do care about her and to lose all contact with her will be difficult for me, but with His help I’ll be able to. But of it’s not His will, then I’ll be more than happy to continue my friendship with her and avoid the near occasion of sin when around her, be it a topic of conversation or something else. It’s just figuring out what it is that I should do is difficult since I don’t know if I somehow promised I would lose contact with her or what. I plan on adding this to my list of things to talk about with my Confessor but I just had to see what others thought since this is
really bothering me. I was starting to think it was an oath.

Sorry if this is another thing I should have stayed away from the forums for. Internet service will probably be cut off within a few days so I’ll
have to stay away from the net.
