As a Pentecostal coming into the Church, I don’t know how to reconcile the vibrant worship with the solemnity of the Mass; it seems as though there’s a place for the vibrant, celebratory worship and the Sacrifice of the Mass. If the Mass is the ultimate expression of Christian worship, does that mean that the vibrant expressive adoration is out of the equation/shunned?
I Kings 19:11-12
11 And he said, “Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the LORD.” And behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and broke in pieces the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake; 12 and after the earthquake a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice.
The Mass gives you a chance to experience that “still, small voice” – particularly if you are able to familiarize yourself with the Low Mass in the Extraordinary Form.
I Cor 14:40
but all things should be done decently and in order.
When you have chaos going on, rather than all things being done decently and in order, it is, in my opinion, difficult to be in a position to actually listen to God. The Mass, when properly celebrated, should give you a glimpse into the Transcendent nature of God. It opens up a window into heaven. Again, in my opinion, chaos tends to block that.
There is a heresy that is prevalent in these days (it has been growing since the late 19th century and is becoming more and more ingrained in our society as time goes on). The name of the heresy is “modernism.” The shortest possible explanation of that heresy is that peoples’ philosophy and beliefs are founded upon a concept of “vital immanence.” That is, that ultimate truths are based upon how a person perceives that truth…that truth is squishy and flexible. Modernism rejects the notion of Transcendent Truth. Examples of modernist thought:
*- I **feel **that the use of hormonal contraceptives is OK. And since my conscience says it’s OK, then it must be OK…
- A woman saying that she **feels **God is calling her to the priesthood.
- All of those old Church doctrines no longer apply. Vatican II changed all of them.*
While I am not trying to reject charismatic worship, I would ask you to recall the high emotional tenor of charismatic worship from your Pentecostal days. This high level of emotionalism tends to lead some people down the primrose path of letting their feelings guide them and mistaking emotionalism for spiritual enlightenment.
Not hardly all, but I have met more than a few who have been led astray by following these emotions rather than clinging to the divine revelation provided by Christ to His Apostles and maintained by the Church. The problem is that when one tries to correct an error, many of these people will utterly reject the correction, because they feel they’ve had a spiritual experience rather than an emotional one. And that dependence upon emotional experience can lead one down the path of the modernist heresy very quickly, particularly if the prayer group leader (lay person or clergy) has been infected by it.
Again, let me emphasize that this doesn’t apply to
ALL charismatics I’ve met. It doesn’t even apply to
most of them. But it does apply to more than a handful I’ve run into.
With the above cautions, I certainly wouldn’t tell you to reject glossolalia. If it is authentic (and not your subconscious mind creating something), that is a tremendous gift that God has graced you with for use in your personal prayer life.
I would encourage you to develop a deep understanding of the transcendent nature of the Divine Liturgy – to the point of being able to grasp in the depths of your soul the paschal mystery that is being presented on the altar…and to be where you can see the joining of heaven and earth within the sanctuary (for me, the EF Mass or the Byzantine liturgy helps my appreciation far more than most, but not all OF Masses). While your glossolalia can help make you more receptive to understanding those truths, it is no substitute.
I would encourage you also to steer clear of the charismatic groups for the time being. You are just in the process of forming your conscience according to the teachings of the Church. As a catechumen or candidate (if you were in a “Oneness” Pentecostal group like UPC, you will likely have to be baptized; if you were in a “Trinitarian” Penteconstal group like AG, you probably won’t have to be), you need to focus on inculcating the faith. Even after being received into the Church, as a neophyte, you need to still exercise caution and guard your heart. Once you are experienced and have your conscience formed, you will have what you need in order to be able to discern whether a given charismatic group is orthodox or if they are going (have gone) off the rails. But I would seriously suggest steering clear for now.