I’m saying that will is soul and has greater importance than the mere needs of the body. The soul is rational, and therefore anything sub-rational is contrary to the will and whatever disrupts the will is sub-rational. Disruptions of the will (like surprise, strong emotions, unpredictable occurrences, mental instabilities e.g. as those brought about by drugs) are always evil because these are disruptions of the soul and of the most valuable part of man, indeed, of that part which most makes a man a man.
If this is all true then it seems God is evil for causing unpredictable occurrences or for causing mental destabilization which are both evils against the very nature of man.
Are you on some sort of quest to prove that God is evil?
What you really are asking is the age-old question: Why is there suffering? And to answer your question if God is evil or not, just look at what Christ did:
Imagine the ocean… and the ocean is God. All of humanity from the beginning of mankind to the end are but one drop in the vast ocean of God. All we know, fathom, reason, are, etc. are but one drop in that vast ocean.
God created Man in a perfect world - there was no suffering, no evil, everything was perfect. God did not bring suffering to Man. Man brought suffering to Man. Our suffering is a natural consequence. Our suffering is actually a HUGE sign of God’s mercy. If we did not suffer here on earth, we would all go directly to hell.
So let’s look at what Christ did. If God is so evil, why would He choose to voluntarily suffer? He sent His only Son to suffer more than any human has ever and will suffer, and die the most painful death. That doesn’t sound like a vindictive and malevolent God to me.
Now, since He sent His Son, we can reason with logic that only a loving God would do this. A malevolent God would send us to hell and be done with it. So why did God, who didn’t need to suffer, chose to suffer in the greatest way possible, if He didn’t need to???
Remember, He is God, and just as He is infinitely more vast than we are, His suffering was infinitely more vast than our suffering. Christ’s death was more painful than ANYTHING we could even begin to fathom. He took on the sins of ALL of mankind for all of history and the future. We suffer our own sins and those of the world around us for only our short lifespan.
God never, and I repeat, never violates our free will. God never coerces one to sin. He allows us to be tempted only if it can bring about a greater good… a greater strength and greater love in us. **There is no victory without a battle. **
At the same time, God is infinitely merciful and compassionate towards our weaknesses. He is not judging us at all if we fall in a moment of weakness. Just look how he was towards Mary Magdalene, the Woman at the Well, the Tax collectors, and the Apostles. He was kind and gentle to them, and he reproached them when necessary - all for love.
I think you do not believe you are loved, and you are trying to justify sin by blaming God for your temptations. If you sinned, confess it! It’s really that simple. If you fell in a moment of weakness, God is not nearly as offended by that as He is by your lack of trust in His Mercy (read the Diary of St. Faustina)
I also HIGHLY recommend “Trustful Surrender to the Divine Providence.” It’s a very small book, and I think it will answer a lot of your questions.