I didn’t realize I was being stubborn and fighting the proper way to receive our Lord, by receiving it by hand. I am very reverent when the time comes, and my hands are clean.
It seems more natural to take it by hand than by tongue, since** I’m not an infant being spoon-fed**
In 1969 Pope Paul asked the Bishops to give their thoughts on communion in the hand. Your response is very similiar to this one given to Pope Paul by a Bishop who was in favor of it. “The traditional way of receiving the host on the tongue seems infantile to our contemporaries; it is too much like the way children are fed who cannot eat by themselves. Many adults now feel ill at ease in this public performance of an action that has no outward attractiveness and makes them resemble children.”
From a Bishop against it. "“ The greatest thing to fear is a lessening of respect for worship of the Eucharist. Reception in the hand will be regarded by many as a less worthy and respectful way of communicating. Will all communicants, including children, have washed their hands?
The vote from the Bishops: Should communion in the hand be allowed? Yes-567 No-1233. Pope Paul decided not to allow communion in the hand. An indult was granted for the Netherlands at the urging of Father Bugnini who said that communion in the hand was, “completely in the spirit of the council”