I have heard you loud and clear from the first time I posted, Bob. So, would you be like others then and tell me to go to a different church outside of Catholicism? I clearly have the separation feeling and it is because of this that I am on the edge…You are saying it is because I am against Catholic Teaching…I feel that there is no other church I would want to belong…so where does that leave a person like me???
I can not say I will ever believe the doctrines in any church…all of them…all the time…I am what one calls human…far beneath… and I do feel it is sinful to vote for a candidate that wants to kill.
Donna Jean, I don’t know you and I’ve entered this thread at a bad place and I’m really sick but I’m afraid for you. I don’t want you to leave the Church. I know it’s not my business, but in a way it is because you are my sister in Christ.
I have weak faith. I’m a Doubting Thomas. I admit it and I fight and pray for faith and things don’t seem to get better. But I know it would be a mistake for you to leave the Church. I don’t know how I know. I just do.
When I don’t understand something that is presented to me as Church doctrine I try to find out all the information I can before I decide if it’s even Church doctrine in the first place. And sometimes that is hard to do.
I’ve been sure of myself a few times and then I’ve conceded when I’m shown the actual documentation that proves me wrong. And I’m glad to concede.
When I doubt a supposed doctrine I put it on the back burner and then think about it and like I said above, I try to find out if it’s really Church doctrine. If I find out it is Church doctrine but my gut feeling tells me it’s wrong, I put it on the back burner again. It may take months but sometimes things become much clearer over time. Some Church doctrine appears ambiguous to me and it’s really hard to know what to do. So I think and then I let it go and later on I think some more and I may ask a priest (but often priests are wrong), so I ask another priest, until I am sure.
I don’t think God expects any of us to take absolutely everything the Church teaches on faith and I’m pretty sure He doesn’t expect us to believe that something is Church doctrine just because someone on CAF says so. He knows what is in your heart. He knows you struggle. As long as you’re struggling to find Truth what could be wrong with what you’re doing?
It’s easy for me to leave the Church. Sometimes I read a post on CAF and in my mind I leave the Church (which is really leaving the Church). Later on I realize that I was wrong.
I’m not pretending to know the answer and please don’t think I’m trying to tell you what to do. I want to help and I have a problem like you have and I just want you to know what I think. That’s all. Take it with a grain of salt or toss it - it’s up to you.
Oh - I almost forgot. I also pray to God for wisdom because I am seriously lacking in that department.
