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CatholicSpirit
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In my life’s journey, I have at times found deep understanding of Jesus as the Messiah, who taught me most of what I need to know through his works, words, and examples. But, I also remember deeply the sin of mankind toward one another when I see injustice through his suffering, partly because I have known those feelings too, of course in different ways, and far less physical pain. So, sometimes I pray without the aspect of fear from being that I am speaking to God. I let myself go, completely, and speak from my heart to someone who is love, knows suffering, all the things I need are in him. His beatitudes remind me that my good heart, poverty, and others who laugh at me when I speak of him, are associated with rewards in heaven, along with thirsting for righteousness. However, at times I think later on that I was treating him too “earthly” in my prayers. He obviously knows this about me already, should I feel bad? It’s harder to think of God the more I do this, it’s just been acknowledged for so long. Am I losing touch? Is it bad? He is so deep in my heart, should I see him glow more, or just love who he is as I know him when I pray this way?