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Yes, I know, a third job thread on my part, or fourth maybe. I’m sorry this looks ungrateful. I was very happy getting this job, paying so much more than the previous one and with so overwhelmingly better conditions, at least if you didn’t look deeper into it.
The last thread I made was after a sitaution which led me to thinking about looking for a new job. Now I’m sure I need one. The situation in the law firm is sick. Some senior lawyers take it out on junior ones not out of malice but simply because they can’t cope with the tension and the chaos in the system any more. It’s just not healthy.
Today I decided that being told, “Go and do it since we’re irritated. And we hope this is visible,” (the partner’s own line) is a bit too much, especially followed by being told off for publishing an already approved “final version” which I was told to publish. Apparently, I failed to predict the possibility that the senior lawyer changed her mind, which was very stupid of me not to predict (and probably ask a dozen times before doing anything, if she hadn’t perhaps changed her mind). And in fact, she’s a kind person - just not one who will take the blame if things go wrong, even if she actually creates the mess. That one’s one of the nicest people there - but if the system does that to her, then what about others? I’m wondering if I can take any more of the corporate law firm reality. I’ve had enough of pushy people who try to gain superiority over their equals, bosses who tell you off for doing exactly what they told you (a mate’s just lost his job that way), or who tell you off for what was done a year before you even joined the firm (as in something wrong in a report I was simply supposed to pick up where it ended, with it supposedly having been verified positively by outside auditors of our client and the client itself).
I’ve actually told the senior lawyer I believed that was unjust and it was too much for me to bear. When told off for something I actually missed (a phrase lost in editing, although very important), I told her I wasn’t working at midnight, with lowered perception, of my own choice. I told her I had enough of working till 10 pm, 11 pm, midnight, for the firm and being laughed at or given to understand I’m an idiot or a lazy person. I said it was probably time for me to look for a different job then.
She can’t fire me. She probably wouldn’t think of it. However, the partner can. The partner will likely try telling me off tomorrow for not having met all the time constraints - regardless of the fact that I got a 140-page statement of claim in a foreign language for a foreign arbitral tribunal to read, as well as several years of daily press articles to weed, and some 15 or more cases to report (most from scratch) for the auditors… All that for say, 4 days, maybe five. Having to visit the court on the last two (3 hours, then 2 hours). I think blaming me for not doing all this in such a timespan offends such fundamental notions of justice that I can’t just keep working there like nothing happened. Or not even blaming me, as much as “proving” things to me, like I did 20% of the task that went in my name, regardless of the fact they made me do all the other staff, ignoring my e-mail requesting them to give me someone to help, or move the deadlines, or set up priorities.
I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I will talk back if they criticise me.
Please pray for me. I do need a new job. Or a radical change in this one… or in me. I honestly can’t keep going on like this.
The last thread I made was after a sitaution which led me to thinking about looking for a new job. Now I’m sure I need one. The situation in the law firm is sick. Some senior lawyers take it out on junior ones not out of malice but simply because they can’t cope with the tension and the chaos in the system any more. It’s just not healthy.
Today I decided that being told, “Go and do it since we’re irritated. And we hope this is visible,” (the partner’s own line) is a bit too much, especially followed by being told off for publishing an already approved “final version” which I was told to publish. Apparently, I failed to predict the possibility that the senior lawyer changed her mind, which was very stupid of me not to predict (and probably ask a dozen times before doing anything, if she hadn’t perhaps changed her mind). And in fact, she’s a kind person - just not one who will take the blame if things go wrong, even if she actually creates the mess. That one’s one of the nicest people there - but if the system does that to her, then what about others? I’m wondering if I can take any more of the corporate law firm reality. I’ve had enough of pushy people who try to gain superiority over their equals, bosses who tell you off for doing exactly what they told you (a mate’s just lost his job that way), or who tell you off for what was done a year before you even joined the firm (as in something wrong in a report I was simply supposed to pick up where it ended, with it supposedly having been verified positively by outside auditors of our client and the client itself).
I’ve actually told the senior lawyer I believed that was unjust and it was too much for me to bear. When told off for something I actually missed (a phrase lost in editing, although very important), I told her I wasn’t working at midnight, with lowered perception, of my own choice. I told her I had enough of working till 10 pm, 11 pm, midnight, for the firm and being laughed at or given to understand I’m an idiot or a lazy person. I said it was probably time for me to look for a different job then.
She can’t fire me. She probably wouldn’t think of it. However, the partner can. The partner will likely try telling me off tomorrow for not having met all the time constraints - regardless of the fact that I got a 140-page statement of claim in a foreign language for a foreign arbitral tribunal to read, as well as several years of daily press articles to weed, and some 15 or more cases to report (most from scratch) for the auditors… All that for say, 4 days, maybe five. Having to visit the court on the last two (3 hours, then 2 hours). I think blaming me for not doing all this in such a timespan offends such fundamental notions of justice that I can’t just keep working there like nothing happened. Or not even blaming me, as much as “proving” things to me, like I did 20% of the task that went in my name, regardless of the fact they made me do all the other staff, ignoring my e-mail requesting them to give me someone to help, or move the deadlines, or set up priorities.
I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I will talk back if they criticise me.
Please pray for me. I do need a new job. Or a radical change in this one… or in me. I honestly can’t keep going on like this.
