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Well, first off I am very grateful for having a good job (pay-wise). So anything I say after this might be whining but, it is very distressing to me all the same…
Long story short, I am now working for the same supervisor that I had before, before an organizational shake-up, and I can’t stand it. She and I are both strong women, but she has all the education and I don’t, and I’ve got all the smarts and for all I can tell, she doesn’t. I have been getting very depressed lately because I’m at a dead end, I don’t mind the work itself but I’d like it a lot better in a different environment. I’m looking but even though there’s lots of jobs out there that I could do, in some way or other I am not quite right for them (so far). I rage at her attitude outside of work, dump on my husband all the time, but when she is talking to me for some shortcoming of mine, I just fold up and give up and kiss her butt. I keep feeling, “I’m getting too old for this #*$^” and have such a bad attitude which I try like anything not to show during work. She is a micromanager and on the one hand, we are supposed to act like “senior” system administrators i.e. make our own decisions, but on the other hand, she still dictates what we’re supposed to do in no uncertain terms.
I have a picture of a Crucifix and Our Lady and the baby Jesus taped to the side of my cube, with the intention of reminding me how I’m supposed to act, and I do pray a lot about this, but somehow I feel like I’m melting down and I really fear I’m going to blow up at work and really mess myself up.
Oh wow, just this minute on EWTN, the Immaculate Conception Novena Day 1 prayer just came on, and I prayed it, wow, what a good thing to happen just now. Anyway. If anyone has any good advice about how to hang in there while I’m job-searching, I sure could use it. Thank you!
Long story short, I am now working for the same supervisor that I had before, before an organizational shake-up, and I can’t stand it. She and I are both strong women, but she has all the education and I don’t, and I’ve got all the smarts and for all I can tell, she doesn’t. I have been getting very depressed lately because I’m at a dead end, I don’t mind the work itself but I’d like it a lot better in a different environment. I’m looking but even though there’s lots of jobs out there that I could do, in some way or other I am not quite right for them (so far). I rage at her attitude outside of work, dump on my husband all the time, but when she is talking to me for some shortcoming of mine, I just fold up and give up and kiss her butt. I keep feeling, “I’m getting too old for this #*$^” and have such a bad attitude which I try like anything not to show during work. She is a micromanager and on the one hand, we are supposed to act like “senior” system administrators i.e. make our own decisions, but on the other hand, she still dictates what we’re supposed to do in no uncertain terms.
I have a picture of a Crucifix and Our Lady and the baby Jesus taped to the side of my cube, with the intention of reminding me how I’m supposed to act, and I do pray a lot about this, but somehow I feel like I’m melting down and I really fear I’m going to blow up at work and really mess myself up.
Oh wow, just this minute on EWTN, the Immaculate Conception Novena Day 1 prayer just came on, and I prayed it, wow, what a good thing to happen just now. Anyway. If anyone has any good advice about how to hang in there while I’m job-searching, I sure could use it. Thank you!