Keep me in your prayers please

[LongingSoul]

:hug1::hug1:

I’ve been praying about that for a long time. Not as much anymore. It kind of goes back to my analogy of leaving voicemails. When asking for the same thing over and over and over for years doesn’t work, eventually you accept the way things are and quit asking. Not to mention that the opposite of what I pray for is usually what happens. It happens so much I remember, during the last presidential election, that I should pray for Obama to win to give Romney the best chance.

Bataar, I’m so sorry to read about your loneliness and pain and I feel it from your Mums point of view too as I have 2 grown children with Aspergers. My son is 22 now, younger than you I think, but he struggles along with so many people in this same situation. He has thankfully got a couple of social circles because the Autism Association in our town runs a computer club (they play games together every Thursday night) and a Recreational Group for older Aspergers people. He’s had so many mis hits with reaching out in friendship too but he’s come to realise he’s more comfortable to socialise in groups that are devoted to some cause or goal… rather than straightout friendship. I must say, I’m better in that way also.

The other trick he’s adopted because of something we learned about Pope John Paul II, is to have something nice planned to look forward too in the short term. He always plans once a week to go to town for Vietnamese even if there is no one to go with, because he love Viet food. Another one is to look for weekend holiday discounts that can make a two night trip to the beach or mountains just to get away from the house.

We had read somewhere that Pope John Paul would struggle with crankiness and dismal feelings when he didn’t have anything coming up to look forward to. You can imagine that too. Being Pope is not something most Popes have aspired too and it’s a difficult and lonely cross to bear.

Anyway, I’ll say a prayer for you right now. It’s never as difficult as one might think to give the soul a lift up from the doldrums. It’s nearly always the little things that make the first stage of the shift.

Small sister… :hug1::hug1:

 

[Annie39]

There, see, there is something you’re still interested in! I’ll bet you can have one custom-made, or have one altered to fit you. I thought to myself, “You’re crazy, why did you think of beekeeping of all things?” But that’s the Holy Spirit, or maybe your guardian angel to mine.

:getholy:

p.s. Just found this website: Looks like large bee suits aren’t very expensive. Boy does the world need more honeybees, so you would be doing a great work of service!

Bee Suits Cheap

Oh, here’s another one

Golden Bee Products

That is absolutely wild RealJ, in a most wonderful way. I haven’t read the rest of the posts but I just had to comment.

As for the young man. I am a mother to a 34 year old man. Please, please talk to your mom. She HAS to know that you have asperger’s (I am the grandmother of a child with autism). Perhaps you might leave out the suicidal thoughts. Maybe you could hang out at her house doing odd jobs for her. My son could start with removing a shrub . Of course the chorse would be after your wonderful beekeeping hours .

Annie

 

[Annie39]

Next time I’m at my doctor, I’ll bring that up. I have an end goal in mind, such has having a career I (sort of) like, paying off my debts, having a family, having friends, etc but all that seems to start with coming up with a job/career I can do that would afford that. Since I can’t think of anything I want to do or can do, I can’t even get started. It just seems like I have zero choices.

Yoo-hoo beekeeping

 

[Annie39]

Well, then maybe you are asking for the wrong things. But God isn’t automatically going to do the opposite of something just be because we ask for it, even if it seems that way. If God does the opposite of what you ask, that’s because it’s best even if we can’t possibly see how. I suggest that you listen to the song “Who you are” by JJ Heller. It’s all about trusting in God when you don’t get the answer you want to your prayer or you don’t understand why something bad happened. It has helped me alot. It on youtube, or you can download it from amazon or Itunes. You might also want to listen to “Who Am I” by Casting Crowns. It on the same places as the other song. And tell God how you feel. Tell Him that you feel like He either doesn’t hear you or is ignoring you. Ask Him to let you know that He is there for you, that He does hear and answer you. I get what you are saying about how it feels you are justing leaving voicemails and not getting answers, but you have to realize that God doesn’t always give direct answers. He may answer us through other people, or through some event, or simply by doing or not doing what we ask. And is all your prayer petitions? This kind of prayer is very important, but it shouldn’t be the only kind of prayer you say. Don’t forget to praise and worship God through prayer. If you do this, and learn to focus more on God than on yourself, than you may find yourself much happier. You would be amazed at how much much more happy I felt, when I started praising God every time I had to do something I didn’t want to, rather than complaining about it to myself.
Also, I think that you should talk to someone about this. Say a priest, nun, or brother. Or even a counselor or psychologist. If that’s not an option, then is there a good friend or family member or parent you can talk to? Make sure it’s something you can trust preferably a Catholic or a least other Christian since you are having problems trusting God.

I think the RealJ is doing great and I’m betting it is easier for him to be “friends” with a person online right now.

 

[Bataar]

Well, to top things off, due to a reorganization at work, I’m now unemployed. I had just made an appointment with a counselor next month that I now won’t have insurance for. It’s this kind of thing that keeps happening. Several years ago, I was on a contract job at Microsoft and things were going well and I started a novena to St. Joseph that I would get hired on as a full time Microsoft employee. A few days after I finished the novena, the project I was on got canceled and not only did I not get hired on full time, I lost my contract job. People tell me it’s because God is/was leading me somewhere else. That was over 10 years ago and I still don’t know where/if God was leading me. It never fails, as soon as something starts looking better, something bad happens.

 

[Annie39]

Well, to top things off, due to a reorganization at work, I’m now unemployed. I had just made an appointment with a counselor next month that I now won’t have insurance for. It’s this kind of thing that keeps happening. Several years ago, I was on a contract job at Microsoft and things were going well and I started a novena to St. Joseph that I would get hired on as a full time Microsoft employee. A few days after I finished the novena, the project I was on got canceled and not only did I not get hired on full time, I lost my contract job. People tell me it’s because God is/was leading me somewhere else. That was over 10 years ago and I still don’t know where/if God was leading me. It never fails, as soon as something starts looking better, something bad happens.

Well, you have not addressed the beekeeping nor any of the other suggestions that the RealJ gave you. You have to start somewhere.

 

[LongingSoul]

Well, to top things off, due to a reorganization at work, I’m now unemployed. I had just made an appointment with a counselor next month that I now won’t have insurance for. It’s this kind of thing that keeps happening. Several years ago, I was on a contract job at Microsoft and things were going well and I started a novena to St. Joseph that I would get hired on as a full time Microsoft employee. A few days after I finished the novena, the project I was on got canceled and not only did I not get hired on full time, I lost my contract job. People tell me it’s because God is/was leading me somewhere else. That was over 10 years ago and I still don’t know where/if God was leading me. It never fails, as soon as something starts looking better, something bad happens.

You could very much benefit from the faith of Job, Bataar. God loved him, but as usual, satan was close on the heels of the beloved.

My suggestion is to openly read the book of Job and absorb the role of suffering to the righteous.

biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Job+1&version=NIV

At the same time, I feel for your situation and urge you to talk to someone… a professional or family member, to share your pain. That takes courage and humility but both are very productive virtues in the spiritual journey.

Prayers and Agape. This is a difficult time for you, I know.

 

[AngelGlitter]

Praying for you and your intentions :byzsoc:
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