I probably should stay in a front pew. If’I’m playing piano or organ, that’s where I am anyway (our choir loft and instruments are at the front of our contemporary-architecture nave).
Kneeling of any kind really hurts my knee, even on a soft surface. A few weeks ago I was visiting a different parish, and out of politeness, I decided to kneel during Mass–and I paid dearly for it the next few days. I couldn’t even put weight on my knee–I had to use my crutch just to walk. It was very scary and painful.
I knew that I had done nothing else out of the ordinary to irritate my poor knee; e.g., taking a walk, being on my feet for an extended period of time, driving in a long traffic back-up (I drive a manual shift car and the clutch can be painful if I am using it a lot, such as in a traffic jam), etc.
The only thing I had done that I don’t normally do is kneel at Mass.
So now I am pretty much done with kneeling at Mass.
I happen to be one of those people who is NOT enhanced in my worship of God by postures, gestures, and body positions. I know that quite a few people, Protestants included, are greatly helped by bodily positions such as kneeling, but for me, it’s meaningless. I think this may be because I have played piano in church since I was a child, and while others were kneeling or raising their hands in praise–I was playing the soft, worshipful music. And we didn’t kneel in prayer by our beds–it’s just not something that Mom did or required us to do.
So at least I’m not being adversely affected by not kneeling. I just hope it’s not a stumbling block for others, especially since I don’t look “crippled.”