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Brian2944
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2 yrs ago I left my job of being a corrections officer in a max security violent-prone jail. I left the job because I found it very difficult living a spiritual life there. I was offered the same money to go to work for a city hospital. The hospital is in a bad area of town and deal with a lot of psychiatric patients and patients from the streets. My problem is that I’m having a conflict with living a loving caring spiritual life and at the same time being called on to be the “tough” guy with patients/visitors the hospital wants off the property or arrested. Most of the time it involves being physical with the individual, and I’m starting to feel more and more guilty about it.
There is a lot of homeless that refuse to leave so the hopital administration ask me to physically put them out. And sometimes the individuals don’t understand because of drug/psychological problems, so it doesn’t feel right.
Working in corrections for a while made me a very angry person, so when I left I devouted my life to seeing others through Christ’s eyes. And God has blessed me so much because I’m seeing others as if they are my own family. I’m seeing them as a victim of sin, like me, and not the enemy. The enemy is satan and his demons. For the first time in my life I’m starting bear the sins of others. It’s amazing, when I see someone doing something sinful, I feel embarrassed as if it was my own brother doing it, and I feel the urge to ask for God’s mercy on them instead of punishment.
So although I’m loving seeing others this way, I’m finding it difficult to make it co-exist with my work duties. How can I love others as Christ said I should, then at the same time be the “tough” guy at work?
(I also wanted to add that these individuals are rarely commiting sins against others, so I can’t always see it as protecting the innocent)
Any advice besides finding a new job??
There is a lot of homeless that refuse to leave so the hopital administration ask me to physically put them out. And sometimes the individuals don’t understand because of drug/psychological problems, so it doesn’t feel right.
Working in corrections for a while made me a very angry person, so when I left I devouted my life to seeing others through Christ’s eyes. And God has blessed me so much because I’m seeing others as if they are my own family. I’m seeing them as a victim of sin, like me, and not the enemy. The enemy is satan and his demons. For the first time in my life I’m starting bear the sins of others. It’s amazing, when I see someone doing something sinful, I feel embarrassed as if it was my own brother doing it, and I feel the urge to ask for God’s mercy on them instead of punishment.
So although I’m loving seeing others this way, I’m finding it difficult to make it co-exist with my work duties. How can I love others as Christ said I should, then at the same time be the “tough” guy at work?
(I also wanted to add that these individuals are rarely commiting sins against others, so I can’t always see it as protecting the innocent)
Any advice besides finding a new job??