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Army_Dillo
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I have a question. When you are wavering about something and don’t know what to do, what should you do? Should you still choose the option that just feels right in your heart? Especially when the option in your heart is the one that is less likely to lead you down a sinful path?
Let me explain. There is this girl that I have been madly in love with since we were 9 years old. She has always been a very close friend of mine. She is in a relationship right now, but it is a somewhat dysfunctional one and they seem to be on the rocks. I really truly believe that she is the one God is planning for me to be with because we seem to be perfect for each other. I have a very strong emotional attachment to her, and I feel it’s the kind of attachment that you can only feel for someone who you grew up with. I’ve been praying alot about her, and I have felt God assuring me that she is the one.
However, yesterday, a distressing thought came into my mind. I suddenly thought “If you met someone who had all the same qualities that she has, you would be just as happy and have the same kind of emotional attatchment.” However, as the day went on, I realized that this wasn’t really true, because I’m really shy and usually have a hard time gaining the trust of people I’ve just met. I’ve also had bad experiences seeking out relationships with people I don’t know very well, and a couple of times it has lead me to sin. I believe that if I had to meet someone new it would be like having to force myself to fall in love with a total stranger. But with my friend, all the wonderful memories of everything we’ve been through together give me a very strong sentimental bond to her, and it’s not like I can just go back in time and grow up with someone else.
Could that feeling I had yesterday just have been a moment of doubt? When I look deep into my heart, my childhood friend is the one that I see, not some fantasy girl who I’m not sure even exists. I might be able to feel some emotional attachment to someone else, but not as strong as my attachment for this girl is. She is really one of a kind. Also, I feel like if I were to fall in love with someone else it would only be because they remind me of her, and I’m not really sure if it’s right to love someone just because they remind you of someone else. Does anyone think that I’m listening to my heart and what happened yesterday was just another one of Satan’s tricks?
Let me explain. There is this girl that I have been madly in love with since we were 9 years old. She has always been a very close friend of mine. She is in a relationship right now, but it is a somewhat dysfunctional one and they seem to be on the rocks. I really truly believe that she is the one God is planning for me to be with because we seem to be perfect for each other. I have a very strong emotional attachment to her, and I feel it’s the kind of attachment that you can only feel for someone who you grew up with. I’ve been praying alot about her, and I have felt God assuring me that she is the one.
However, yesterday, a distressing thought came into my mind. I suddenly thought “If you met someone who had all the same qualities that she has, you would be just as happy and have the same kind of emotional attatchment.” However, as the day went on, I realized that this wasn’t really true, because I’m really shy and usually have a hard time gaining the trust of people I’ve just met. I’ve also had bad experiences seeking out relationships with people I don’t know very well, and a couple of times it has lead me to sin. I believe that if I had to meet someone new it would be like having to force myself to fall in love with a total stranger. But with my friend, all the wonderful memories of everything we’ve been through together give me a very strong sentimental bond to her, and it’s not like I can just go back in time and grow up with someone else.
Could that feeling I had yesterday just have been a moment of doubt? When I look deep into my heart, my childhood friend is the one that I see, not some fantasy girl who I’m not sure even exists. I might be able to feel some emotional attachment to someone else, but not as strong as my attachment for this girl is. She is really one of a kind. Also, I feel like if I were to fall in love with someone else it would only be because they remind me of her, and I’m not really sure if it’s right to love someone just because they remind you of someone else. Does anyone think that I’m listening to my heart and what happened yesterday was just another one of Satan’s tricks?
