I do look forward to a new chapter in my life, I am of course saddened by the loss of what we had started together. It will always be a part of me, a constant reminder that relationships require as much effort from both sides, as one puts into a career, and solid foundation in faith. Since our filing, I have had a difficult time attending church, always feeling uncomfortable being in any one place for any length of time. I’ve been to 4 different churches, and every one it seems as though I’m the only person under 40 there. It feels as though nobody my age or younger attend church anymore… a handful of younger families, but that’s about it. It just feels as though there’s really no ‘hope’ of actually meeting someone who won’t see my faith as a fault.
As sad and hard as it is don’t lose hope. I know how you feel because I used to be the “fixer”, but a couple is made of two people and you can’t change people especially when they don’t want to.
Soon you will realize it’s a good way to get to know you better. The only thing you need to focus on now is God and you. The rest will follow.
I’ll pray for you.
E.
