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Um, i dont really know how to say this but i guess ill spit it out the best i can.

Ok, so for years ive been dealing with thoughts that Devil (i refer to the Devil as IT) tries to put in my head. They’ve worsened over time, and they’ve gotten to the point that the Devil tries to put thoughts about harming others into my head. IT tries to make me angry at people for the smallest things and, sometimes, i feel like a monster. IT also tries to make me think thoughts against God (whom i am very close to) and, for years, IT’s tried to make me think awful thoughts against others and think awful words.

God has really helped me realize that as long as i fight the thoughts off, then i am not in the wrong. Ive recently come to realize (well God has told me) that part of the reason why this is a problem for me is because of physical abuse and emotional abuse i encountered from my parents when i was younger (they dont abuse me any more, thank God).

So i guess my question is if there is anyone else out there that has this same problem? And also does anyone know if there is a name for this kind of problem? like is it a disease or something like depression? i dont really know anything about this problem other than what God has told me and what ive figured out.

And also, i ask that no one judge me. If you dont have anything kind or helpful to say, plz dont post it. Thanks, and God bless.
 
I definitely know how you feel, or at least have a common touchstone with you. I myself struggle with anger. You and I and all the rest of us who do are in my prayers every night.

God bless you and keep you.
 
artist4God55 said:
Um, i dont really know how to say this but i guess ill spit it out the best i can.

Ok, so for years ive been dealing with thoughts that Devil (i refer to the Devil as IT) tries to put in my head. They’ve worsened over time, and they’ve gotten to the point that the Devil tries to put thoughts about harming others into my head. IT tries to make me angry at people for the smallest things and, sometimes, i feel like a monster. IT also tries to make me think thoughts against God (whom i am very close to) and, for years, IT’s tried to make me think awful thoughts against others and think awful words.

God has really helped me realize that as long as i fight the thoughts off, then i am not in the wrong. Ive recently come to realize (well God has told me) that part of the reason why this is a problem for me is because of physical abuse and emotional abuse i encountered from my parents when i was younger (they dont abuse me any more, thank God).

So i guess my question is if there is anyone else out there that has this same problem? And also does anyone know if there is a name for this kind of problem? like is it a disease or something like depression? i dont really know anything about this problem other than what God has told me and what ive figured out.

And also, i ask that no one judge me. If you dont have anything kind or helpful to say, plz dont post it. Thanks, and God bless.
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I will pray for you. I would suggest though, they if you feel urges to harm yourself or others, you also should seek the help of a qualified mental health professional. Please consider this assistance if these unwanted thoughts become worse. I pray that the Lord will give you victory over these intrusive feelings, and will give you peace of mind.
 
Wow I can’t believe I have responses already! Thank you everyone! Plz keep the replies coming
 
what you mention is normal I have had those thoughts especially a loved one or someone that is so nice and loving there is a thought spit in their face or the word Eucharist and a though a p instead of e and that really breaks my heart. God knows that it is IT not you. It is IT that puts nasty thoughts like that. I say "I trbuke you in the name of the Father Son and Holy Ghost " and it leaves me. I take it form the source and after I get rid of IT in prayer I feel so much better Now when I get those thoughts I say “oh it is you again go away” he flees me. Big deal in some ways absolultly in other way no big deal. Know where it is coming from and rebuke it in the nake of the Father Son and Holy Ghost. eventually he will find an easier target. Peace Mike.
 
Hi,
Temptations prove love. God never tempts but He allows the devil from time to time to do so that we may grow in grace. Below is a statement that may help.

St. Alphonsus Maria de Liguori - Letters II
‘You are not the only one whom Jesus Christ treats thus: how many penitents have I not had whom the Lord has treated in this way nearly to the day of their death! One of them was continually tempted to hate God; another said without intermission that she had been condemned never to be able to love God, etc.; nevertheless they all died a happy death. And as for you, of what are you afraid? If you had not this cross of desolation, you would not have any cross in this world; and without a cross we cannot come to God. Besides, the pain that you feel on account of not being able to love God, is a proof that you love him; for if you did not love him you would not feel this pain. Those persons that do not love God feel no pain in thinking that they do not love him.’
 
I went through the same exact thing and still am. What I do is dive into my Bible. I pray and ask Jesus to help me through. I beg Mary to intercede for me. When you feel like hurting yourself or others, sit on your hands. It works. One pastor I met said that when he helps people to stop smoking and these people have a temptation to, he says to get away from that place where you are tempted. I think that can go for any kind of temptation.
 
yeah i actually think i have sat on my hands before 🙂 and i keep saying i wont do it and “stop it satan”. im sorry u r going through it as well 😦 its absolutely terrible, at least for me. i have been reading more of my Bible lately 🙂 and im trying to apply WWJD to try to help combat it. thanks for ur reply 🙂
 
oh and yes, i do try to get away from all sharp objects at all time. they absolutely terrify me…so i try to get away from them as fast as possible. knives are a form of torture.
 
I pray for you

Go to confession, it will free you from what you are talking about.

And will give you peace

Go to confession asap

Pray pray pray

Pray the divine mercy Chaplet, it only takes 5 minutes

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Pray the rosary.

Have holy water in your room. Sprinkle and drink some, and the devil will flee

Forgive your parents.

Here’s how

Jesus, forgive my parents for they know not what they do, then proceed with hail marys as many as you like.

Ask Jesus to heal you, and he will heal you.

It is basically heart wounds, and the devil is using that heart wounds to disturb you. If you forgive your parents you will be healed from these disturbance.

May the merciful Jesus bless you

Read some saints books, will you?
saintsbookscatechisms.blogspot.com/
Try to read the Diary of St. Faustina Kowalska - Divine Mercy in my Soul

Learn from the meekness of the saints, and you will find peace and love

The book can be read using adobe acrobat reader

Avoid idleness, fill your time with prayer, spiritual readings, or simple works such as washing the dishes, laundry, cleaning the room etc

And say the Jesus Prayer while doing that . Say, Jeeee… Suuuus… Jeeee… Suuuuss… according to the rythm of your breathing. The Devil will Flee by pronouncing the name of Jesus. You can say the name of Jesus like 2000 times. Everytime the temptation comes just say Jeee… Suuuss… or Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me a sinner!

And it will go. Trust me

Satan trembles at the name of Jesus.

Or you can perform short exorcism on yourself, say, “In the name of Jesus Christ, begone Satan!”
 
artist4God55 said:
Um, i dont really know how to say this but i guess ill spit it out the best i can.

Ok, so for years ive been dealing with thoughts that Devil (i refer to the Devil as IT) tries to put in my head. They’ve worsened over time, and they’ve gotten to the point that the Devil tries to put thoughts about harming others into my head. IT tries to make me angry at people for the smallest things and, sometimes, i feel like a monster. IT also tries to make me think thoughts against God (whom i am very close to) and, for years, IT’s tried to make me think awful thoughts against others and think awful words.

God has really helped me realize that as long as i fight the thoughts off, then i am not in the wrong. Ive recently come to realize (well God has told me) that part of the reason why this is a problem for me is because of physical abuse and emotional abuse i encountered from my parents when i was younger (they dont abuse me any more, thank God).

So i guess my question is if there is anyone else out there that has this same problem? And also does anyone know if there is a name for this kind of problem? like is it a disease or something like depression? i dont really know anything about this problem other than what God has told me and what ive figured out.

And also, i ask that no one judge me. If you dont have anything kind or helpful to say, plz dont post it. Thanks, and God bless.
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A lady friend shared with me that she has anger problems that crop up frequently, and she believes they stem from her turbulent childhood.

There are healing prayers for that, and one suggestion I can give is to imagine that Jesus is there with you, back in time when you were abused, and that He is suffering with you and loves you. This can be done whenever you feel led to pray this way. Also, it may be necessary to pray for your parents and tell Jesus that you have forgiven them.

I hope I haven’t offended with my suggestions, but these are the usual ones I have read about for those who are still suffering in some way due to long ago problems suffered.

God bless you!
 
Thank you everyone for all of your suggestions! i really appreciate it! one thing i wanted to make clear was that the abuse i suffered has long since gone away…my parents are good people and they just made some mistakes. i love them dearly…now im just trying to heal long ago wounds
 
This also sounds like potential OCD. I struggled with this for half of my life until getting on the proper meds. Praise be to God!!!
 
I am with you in your struggle! It seems every time I go to confession and receive Holy Communion an onslaught of evil thoughts pummel my mind! I know it’s not me thinking them. It is "all the evil spirits who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls (from St. Michael’s prayer). A prayer I learned a long time ago that helps me when I feel this goes like this:

“In the name of Jesus Christ I command you to leave me! I call on St. Michael and his angels to come now and battle to protect me! I ask the saints to pray for me now to our Lord and Savior to help me! By faith I know you are defeated!”

I say this the moment I realize evil thoughts are entering my mind. I always feel relief after praying this. I hope this helps you. I will pray for you! Please pray for me too!
 
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