Hi,
I’ve been a strong believer of the Catholic faith ever since I was born. And really strong, I felt incredibly close to God. But then I read “His Dark Materials” by Philip Pulman. Actually, I only read the first two books, and half of the last one, at which point I couldn’t read any further. I don’t find myself as a gullible person, but all the questions that came to my mind after reading the books; they can’t get out of my head. I know there is a God out there, I know for a fact. But I’m doubting everything I’ve ever believed in. I’ve lost all closeness to Him and I need help finding Him.
Laudatur Iesus Christus.
Dear Nairdadrian:
Faith is based on truth. Reason and not feeling is the faculty with which one engages truth. Faith based on “feeling” close to God is topsy-turvy, or to use the Latin term, preposterous.
I have only read the first of the books in the series you named, however, it is clear from that alone that the people depicted in the book are evil. From the first to the last the little girl who is the main character is vile in her selfish indifference to others. (An indifference mirrored by the author’s choices in telling the story as he does.) Considering her parents and the fallen “church,” (dedicated to physical science) which is depicted in the book, one can hardly be surprised that she is vile.
Sustained exposure to evil, with a vile person depicted as the “heroine,” is a deadening experience. The first book of the series you mention is a sustained attack on innocence, chastity, the humanity of children, family, motherhood, fatherhood, knowledge, truth, and thus on God Himself. Experiencing this as an adventure story exposes one’s emotions to the damage unavoidably associated with such vampiric evil.
Reason looking into the eyes of a friend tells us that man’s soul is not an animal. Reason smiling at an excited child who has discovered a new delight in the world tells us that a child’s soul is not a fluxing and unformed animal. The daemons protruding from Pullman’s characters are exploitive reductions of humanity. They obscure rather than clarify truth. They do not even honestly question; they distract and lie.
This suggests that some of the “questions” which plague you might be chimera and not true questions. However, one need not fear such scorpions and dragons, so long as one is willing to face them and test whether they are fake, before one accepts them as true challenges to knowledge and pointers to the chinks in the veil that shrouds the truth.
Let us consider the purported questions, dismiss those that are fake, and explore what insights can be gleaned from pursuing the others.
Spiritus Sapientiae tecum.
John Hiner