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schoolteacher68
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Some of you may have read my previous posts regarding my fiancé and my mother…
if not, my fiancé and I have been “engaged” for 3 years and I have been unsure as to proceed with the marriage plans because of finances…to make a long story short, he told me this past weekend that due to some recent events in our lives, that he will no longer have sex with me until we get married and that I have 3 choices:1) get married, 2) continue as we are “engaged” with no definitive plans but be chaste, or 3) remain friends only and break off our engagement…I understand the Scriptures about marriage and sex outside of it and all, but I guess deep down inside, I feel that if we love each other and are committed to one another, that it really isn’t all that bad…we are both divorced and annulled, so there are no impediments, except my own doubts (my ex had an affair after 21 years of being together and I guess it’s messed me up)…fiancé is a long haul truck driver so he’s not around all week, home on weekends only…I’ve been praying for ages and not sure what to do…I love him but at the same time don’t want to get married for the wrong reasons (see my previous posts as it’s too much to put here)…
my mom also recently passed away (August 20) and even though she was 93 and had a full life, I miss her dearly…she was the light of my life and I feel lost without her…
I am a teacher and supposed to go back to work tomorrow, but I took a month off because I had a motorcycle accident on August 17 and am severely bruised and sore…
too much going on and feeling alone…
if not, my fiancé and I have been “engaged” for 3 years and I have been unsure as to proceed with the marriage plans because of finances…to make a long story short, he told me this past weekend that due to some recent events in our lives, that he will no longer have sex with me until we get married and that I have 3 choices:1) get married, 2) continue as we are “engaged” with no definitive plans but be chaste, or 3) remain friends only and break off our engagement…I understand the Scriptures about marriage and sex outside of it and all, but I guess deep down inside, I feel that if we love each other and are committed to one another, that it really isn’t all that bad…we are both divorced and annulled, so there are no impediments, except my own doubts (my ex had an affair after 21 years of being together and I guess it’s messed me up)…fiancé is a long haul truck driver so he’s not around all week, home on weekends only…I’ve been praying for ages and not sure what to do…I love him but at the same time don’t want to get married for the wrong reasons (see my previous posts as it’s too much to put here)…
my mom also recently passed away (August 20) and even though she was 93 and had a full life, I miss her dearly…she was the light of my life and I feel lost without her…
I am a teacher and supposed to go back to work tomorrow, but I took a month off because I had a motorcycle accident on August 17 and am severely bruised and sore…
too much going on and feeling alone…
