Oops, my bad. I just read psalm 22(after my previous post). I get it now, kinda. Does he not feel abondoned, and he is simply reciting the psalmas a prayer?
There is probably no earthly way we can possibly conceive of the anguish Christ was feeling at that moment. Consider Is 53…
Yet it was our infirmities that he bore, our sufferings that he endured, While we thought of him as stricken, as one smitten by God and afflicted. But he was pierced for our offenses, crushed for our sins, Upon him was the chastisement that makes us whole, by his stripes we were healed. 6 We had all gone astray like sheep, each following his own way; But the LORD laid upon him the guilt of us all. 7 Though he was harshly treated, he submitted and opened not his mouth; Like a lamb led to the slaughter or a sheep before the shearers, he was silent and opened not his mouth. 8 Oppressed and condemned, he was taken away, and who would have thought any more of his destiny? When he was cut off from the land of the living, and smitten for the sin of his people, 9 A grave was assigned him among the wicked and a burial place with evildoers, Though he had done no wrong nor spoken any falsehood.
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4 (But the LORD was pleased to crush him in infirmity.) If he gives his life as an offering for sin, he shall see his descendants in a long life, and the will of the LORD shall be accomplished through him. 11 Because of his affliction he shall see the light in fullness of days; Through his suffering, my servant shall justify many, and their guilt he shall bear.
His divine nature was fully aware of the mighty weight of our sins and transgressions. If “hell” for us is God’s absence, this must have been a kind of “hell” for Him—keen awareness of our
lack of love for Him. I don’t know that He felt necessarily abandoned by the Father as He is “one in being with the Father”. I do think He was leaving us one of the “last sayings” for us to ponder and pray about.