Marriage as Sacrament or Covenant

[Irishgal49]

Thank you for all of your compassionate and patient responses. I really want to be able to feel at peace but right know I just feel I don’t fit into the Catholic Church. I’m trying to find my way but when I speak of things that I struggle with I get attacked and it’s really hard . I try to talk on here and on one page I had someone who was making fun of me like I was a kid or something.

I honestly don’t feel like I fit in. I am having trouble finding someone who likes me or wants to work with me. I am really tired of standing out. I hear reasoning and it makes sense but because my experience contradicts it I can’t seem to grasp it or make it fit my life or understanding. I am so lost and I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like anyone likes me and I don’t much like myself either. I want to keep going, what will I accomplish if I lose my faith entirely? I feel like I’m at my wit’s end some days. I honestly do not like being this way but I feel like I’m about to chuck and it and walk away…thankfully I usually feel better in a day or two but watching everyone relating and enjoying each other’s company and me being all alone, is getting harder and harder.

I really do appreciate that you have all been very respectful and kind to me. Thank you and God bless you,

Lorrie

 

[mdcpensive1]

Thank you for all of your compassionate and patient responses. I really want to be able to feel at peace but right know I just feel I don’t fit into the Catholic Church. I’m trying to find my way but when I speak of things that I struggle with I get attacked and it’s really hard . I try to talk on here and on one page I had someone who was making fun of me like I was a kid or something.

I honestly don’t feel like I fit in. I am having trouble finding someone who likes me or wants to work with me. I am really tired of standing out. I hear reasoning and it makes sense but because my experience contradicts it I can’t seem to grasp it or make it fit my life or understanding. I am so lost and I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like anyone likes me and I don’t much like myself either. I want to keep going, what will I accomplish if I lose my faith entirely? I feel like I’m at my wit’s end some days. I honestly do not like being this way but I feel like I’m about to chuck and it and walk away…thankfully I usually feel better in a day or two but watching everyone relating and enjoying each other’s company and me being all alone, is getting harder and harder.

I really do appreciate that you have all been very respectful and kind to me. Thank you and God bless you,

Lorrie

Hi Lorrie, you seem to have communicated your situation very well and made it very understandable.
Please don’t beat up on yourself because God went to all the trouble to put an infinite soul into your body for purposes you may not yet understand. There have been saints that have felt abandonment and loneliness also. This could be just a situation that you have that will make you stronger in the long run even though it hurts right now. We will all be praying for you and want you to know that you are in the Body of Christ with us. Know that you are not alone in this.

You may want to talk with a spiritual advisor or find some group that meets in a parish where you can make friends and be a friend. You may even want to do a service or volunteer work because that makes many people feel better knowing there are others in worse situations than ours.
Take care and God bless and our prayers will be with you.
mdcpensive1

 

[SonCatcher]

Thank you for all of your compassionate and patient responses. I really want to be able to feel at peace but right know I just feel I don’t fit into the Catholic Church. I’m trying to find my way but when I speak of things that I struggle with I get attacked and it’s really hard . I try to talk on here and on one page I had someone who was making fun of me like I was a kid or something.

I honestly don’t feel like I fit in. I am having trouble finding someone who likes me or wants to work with me. I am really tired of standing out. I hear reasoning and it makes sense but because my experience contradicts it I can’t seem to grasp it or make it fit my life or understanding. I am so lost and I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like anyone likes me and I don’t much like myself either. I want to keep going, what will I accomplish if I lose my faith entirely? I feel like I’m at my wit’s end some days. I honestly do not like being this way but I feel like I’m about to chuck and it and walk away…thankfully I usually feel better in a day or two but watching everyone relating and enjoying each other’s company and me being all alone, is getting harder and harder.

I really do appreciate that you have all been very respectful and kind to me. Thank you and God bless you,

Lorrie

Unfortunately, all the respondents here are fallen humans, just like those who have hurt you in the past. Through carelessness or apathy, we are going to fail you sometimes. Please don’t give up on us. Most of us really do mean well even if some of us misunderstand the seriousness of your dilemma.

Please pray for those who have hurt you but definitely continue to stick around (in the Church, that is - you can decide for yourself whether CAF is worthwhile long term.