Maybe the wrong board, but since I know you please pray for me

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That is horrible to say I know. But I"m terrified.

I have had sore throats off and on for 2 months, and like a kind of swelling or something in my lymph node, checked for mono, and strep - nothing. Slight swelling is what my doc says.

Going to Ear Nose Throat person tomorrow, and getting CT scan.

I am TERRIFIED. I am so scared its throat cancer or something.

I have heard that if you have engaged in promiscuious behavior in the past then this can lead to the HPV virus which can lead to cancer of the mouth/throat etc.

Well, I have been monogomous for 9 years, but before that when I was stupid and irreverent and frankly not even using God as my barameter by which I should live my life I did some behavior I’m mortified about.

So am I being punished now - not that my embarrassment isnt enough.

I"m terrified - I wont sleep tonight.

I’m so scared. I have so much to live for now - a family, and I would be … its not even possible for me to write how I would be crumbled by this, especially if somehow it were my fault.

Maybe its just allergies or a sore throat, or who knows…but i’m TERRIFIED. Its not even close to that word how scared I am.

Please if you have a moment, could you say a prayer for me. Please. Thank you.
 
Relax and BREATHE. There are over 100 strains of the HPV virus, and only a small handful of those cause any type of cancer. Almost every person who’s had sex with more then one partner in their lifetime has been exposed to at least one HPV strain, and your body flushes most of them out with no problem (the strains that cause cervical cancer and herpes being exceptions). If you’re genuinely afraid that could be the cause, ask your doctor about doing a blood test. It could just be allergy problems you’re having, it could be that you need your tonsils or adenoids removed, it could be staph infection, it could be anything. Until you know for certain, don’t assume the worst.

Relax, breathe, and have faith.

If it helps calm your fears, I’m going to an ENT next week, myself. I’ve spent a month straight coughing and having incredible sinus drainage which has left me unable to sing a note (I’m a classical singer) for four weeks. There’s a ‘what if you’ve damaged your voice beyond repair’ thought at the back of my mind, but I’m not letting it get too loud. There’s nothing I can do about it at the moment, so there’s no point in letting it keep me from sleeping until after I’ve been to the specialist and heard his opinion.
 
**Relax. Pray. Know that you are not being punished. If you have asked for forgiveness (sincerely) then you are forgiven. If God can forgive you then surely you can forgive yourself? (I come from a similar past and know how hard that concept is, but it’s true.)

Praying for you and I hope we see another post from you soon telling us that it’s just some silly allergy or infection!

By the way, I am no stranger to ENTs and have had 7 surgeries on that region…none of them for cancer. There are a lot of different things it could be.**
 
I am praying for you. Do what you need to in order to sleep tonight. Anxiety ramps up at night and when we’re tired, our minds can become weak against fearful thoughts. Have a heart to heart with God about your fears, ask that you are given experienced practitioners tomorrow who can answer your questions, then open the Bible and read. Hopefully peace will come over you and you will sleep sound until the morning. Peace be with you.
 
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