I have had enough.
When I feel this way I want to stop taking my medication but I will get ill if I do, is this a sin?
This is not a question with a simple answer. I don’t want to sound like I’m saying “it depends on what your definition of ‘is’ is”, but it does depend on what you meant by “feel this way”, “want”, “medication” , and “ill”.
For instance, it is not a sin for a cancer patient to elect to refuse chemotherapy which might extend life but which makes them suffer horribly. OTOH, it would be wrong for someone to elect to quit taking a benign medication and put a burden onto someone else precisely
because they want to get sick and get out of some responsibility or other. Obviously, most cases fall somewhere between those two extremes.
The other concern is that an extended or serious illness (or even a misunderstanding) can make a patient feel as if they have fewer options than they actually have. You would do best to continue your medication until you have an opportunity to talk to your physician. When you talk to your doctor, be diligent to find out what your true options are and the prognosis and trade-offs for each. Then if you have moral questions, go to your pastor and be able to give him a full accounting of the options you have. Your pastor, in turn, might discern that you need help in staying the best course for you, and could suggest you get counselling in order to gain emotional support and greater emotional resources to cope with your problem.
IOW, don’t waste your time with those of us in the cheap seats. Go to those who have the professional office to help you, and seek their help in making your decision.
