Medjugorie is there for you, to help you and to give you time out and peace, but more-so to help you realise how to live your life.
Your life is short and so is the grace of Medjogorie. Find out balanced opinions of Medjugorie and do not close your mind to the subject because the church has not concluded its work. The church cannot do so until the alleged apparitions have stopped.
Everything is equal before God. Pray for guidance on Medjugorie with an open heart.
Your profile says Christian but you don’t say if you are a Catholic Christian or not. If you are not Catholic then you may not know the approval procedure for apparitions, visions, messages, stigmata etc.
Such things must be investigated by the local Bishop. If the local bishop gives approval that does not mean the mesages etc are Church approved it simply means any “evidence” goes forward to the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith (CDF) in Rome who would then do their own investigation and come to a decision (approval or not).
However, if it is not approved at local level then that’s the end of the line. It is not approved and does not go to Rome for a decision.
This is the case with Medjugorie. Three Bishops Commissions have declared and documented that there is no evidence of anything supernatural happening and they went further to declare the visionaries are fake so that is the status. Nothing for Rome to do.
Furthermore some local Franciscans there still try to perpetuate these vsions (
apparitions.org) despite the ruling and have had faculties suspended. They are not allowed to say mass or hear Confession as they are being disobedient to the Church.
Also Pope Benedict XVI, while he was still Cardinal Ratzinger, called Medjugorie a hoax.
A simple test of genuineness is whether any apparitions etc unites the faithful or divides them. Medjugorie has been highly devisive and that is something that comes from Satan and not God.